Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I wish....that I knew why I feel this way.
I wish....that I knew why fate acts this way.
I wish....that I knew why the rainbow comes after a rainstorm.
I wish....that I knew why hope comes after dread.
I wish....that I knew the why of women and men.
~~*~~
I think..that I should retire for awhile. Or at least, think seriously for awhile about...things. After all, I'm growing up. I shouldn't keep being trapped willingly in my fantasy world of philosophy and unsolved questions, as much as I like it. (Speaking of that, I haven't done that in awhile already. Hm.)
Or at least, reserve it for the other blog.
Good grief, this blog is becoming more superficial every day. o_O" That is NOT my intention, trust me. I shall revert the other blog to being superficial and this one to be more in depth? That's the problem with having two blogs; you always think you have enough thoughts to go around, but you don't. (Plus having a livejournal, but that's just for keeps.)
..I think Lu Chang's sian-ness is rubbing off on me. >< That is not good. Nowadays, no one talks to me on MSN anymore, not even Lu Chang. I suspect he's off to watch the anime I recommended, and I don't want to disturb him. I know how horrible it is to watch and type back at the same time. But I do wish that someone would talk to me...it's lonely being an only child.
Ah well. I'm keeping myself occupied with RPing and OM, so it's not so bad after all. But still...it's not the same? Never mind. I'm not going to complain and lament such that someone takes pity on me and talk to me. It's their business...after all.
Ho hum. Feeling lackadaisical. I like that word, even if I can't pronounce it. XD It's sort of fantasy-ish like, and it conveys my mood exactly and precisely down to the very ounce of irrationality. If you don't know check the dictionary. But there are several meanings; can you find the right one?
Words have turned into my constant playtoy. It's quite fun, actually. I learn to shut out other sounds and thoughts just by playing this one-person game, and though my parents say that I'm stoning -which I'm not, I'm thinking- it does help me to...while the time away. I know that I should be using my time well and all, but hey, if you're in a market being told to tend to the trolley while your mother selects fish, you'll do the same thing, right?
Though I still can't beat Sarah at her mastery of words. Sigh.
I went to an art exhibition today while my father was taking a break just before sending me to school. (The art exhibition was at my mom's place.) I see all the scenery and paintings..and I can't help but think wistfully, what I won't give to paint half as well as that. I know I should be grateful for my talents..but what talents do I actually have? (Not fishing for compliments here. Really.) I don't know what I'm actually good at...all the stuff I do seem so mediocre out of a sudden. But never mind about that.
One painting that I especially liked was that of the waves crashing against the rocks. I suppose of the idea of desperation and determination appeals to me. But it's kind of sad, seeing the waves turning into foam onto the sea-soaked rocks and then crashing again and again...
It's like raindrops hurling themselves at glass windows, futile in their efforts and useless. But then, that's the pull of Nature. What to do? What do we do to stop it, anyway? We just have to let it happen, I suppose. The cycle of Nature..
Rayne
That shard of glass that wormed its way into your skin and poisoned you with its lies; don't you trust me?
Where dreams were made; 9:14 PM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I'm back on WF! And they still remember me after so long! Whatsit been..more than six months? ^^ Goldie goldie goldie...my dear mentor..!! <3~
It's a bit hard to readjust back, especially since there are so many new faces and threads. I feel like an amateur about them. Sigh.
Still, it's nice to be back. Like going back to PEPS and knowing that they still remember me. My posts would become shorter and shorter...
Sorry. (:
Anyway, excerpt from my RPing..
Coppergale stared at his beloved’s face, fear and uncertainty shining in her gaze. I’m going to be a father… He thought disbelievingly. His original thought was that of joy and an incredible love for Tawnyfire. Then, as the surprise and joy faded, he saw the possible troubles that Tawnyfire could face, being pregnant with kits. As deputy, she was not allowed to have kits, unlike a queen.
How would the Clan react to this news? He wondered. Would they be able to accept Tawnyfire still as their deputy? Or even –StarClan forbid- force her to give up her kits?
He snapped out of his reverie. Right now, Tawnyfire needed his encouragement the most, and his support. The rest, they can deal with it –together. He nuzzled Tawnyfire warmly. "I love you always, Tawny," he whispered into her fur. "I know that you're frightened, and that you have a right to be. But we will face the Clan together, despite their reaction. I would be with you, giving you my support all the way. And no matter what the consequence, I want you to know that I’m very proud of you, Tawny."
Rayne
(:
Where dreams were made; 7:00 PM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
I suddenly feel...very gratified. For what, I have no idea. Just being alive, to be sitting in front of my computer typing this, I suppose. (:
Since I'm feeling so thankful, I shall do my thanks here. For this year. ^^
To 112'06, I love you guys, really. Thank you for giving me a really memorable and fun sec 1 year! We are really, truly a very unique class..!! All the friends that I've made this year...I'll never forget you all. Really. (:
To PSLs of 1112'06, you guys were there for us, to cheer us when we were down and give us advice and counseling. You all showed us the ropes, and integrated us into the RGS family. The enthu-ness that you displayed even when we were stoned is to be admired. Thank you!!
To NPCC Sea, you all have taught me that a uniform group isn't really that horrible. I had loads of fun learning alongside you guys. Seniors, you guys are the BEST seniors a Sec 1 could ever wish to have. (: <33!
To all my PEPS classmates, thank you for not forgetting me, even though I've left PEPS for so long already. For putting up with my blur-ness, since I've been away from PEPS for so long. And for still remembering me as your friend and classmate, and introducing me to other PEPS people like Wen Jing and Lu Chang. ^^ Thank you!
To Act 3 where I belong cast, thank you so much for providing me with an experience I would never ever forget. The time spent with everybody, whether it be rushing for makeup and costumes, rehearsals, or just laughing together is something I would cherish. Thank you. (:
And personal ones:
To Sarah, for being always, always there for me. For putting up with all my small tantrums, melodramatic moments and depressions. For counseling me, advising me with all the problems I had, no matter how little or how large they were. And purely for lending me her support and showing her weakness, to remind me that we are just human after all, so that I can comfort and counsel her in return. And finally, but not the least, for being my best friend. (: I love you.
To Vivienne, for being my best friend and for being who she is. For reminding me that in this world, we still have peace, joy and simple happiness. And for my faith in God, so that I trust in Him. Thank you, and yes, I love you too.
To Swetha, for also being my best friend for over a year. ^^ For her wackiness, her practicality and just being her. For talking to me at times, especially in the first half of the year when I was lost and needed her and Sarah's support. For not turning her back on me and for staying in touch. Thankie, dear. (:
To Glory, Talia, Yi Fei and Celeste, thank you for being there for me and keeping me on track for the first half of the Sec 1 year. For reminding me of all the deadlines there were, and all the projects that had to be submitted. For telling me that the simplicity of just sitting together eating and talking can be happiness in its own way, as well. And for showing me just how happy I can be in the company of friends. ^^ Thank you!
To Gracey, thank you for your blur-ness, your optimism and your cheerfulness. You removed a little of my cynicism and lifted my depression when I was down. Thank you for being my confidante at times and renewing my faith in God, after Vivienne. Thank you for being my friend and for being so bubbly and enthusiastic about everything. <33!
To Muni, for being also, my confidante in areas where I couldn't confide to anyone else. For her blunt wit, her sarcasm, her sensitivity. And for her cuteness which shows itself so unexpectedly that makes her even more cute than ever. For her hugs and her warmth, and her loyalty as a friend. (: Love you too!
To JX, for being just so drama! XD For her enthu-ness, her presence and for keeping me company at times. For being sensitive to my moods and for being cheerful all the way. Her drollness in which she re-enacts some jokes, and her laugh. Thank yew!
To Nancy, for reminding me that I'm so unlucky to be an only child. X)) For rendering me speechless during some of our arguments and debates. For causing me to raise my hands up in defeat when she makes some decisions which I can't agree on but is helpless to change. For her charisma, her wit and her cuteness as well. And lastly, but the most important one of them all, thank you for making me smile. (:
..And I think that's all. Hmm. If I continue any further I'll be thanking everybody that I've ever met already. XD So I'm just going to stop here. But believe me, to all the other people that I've met and whom I hold dearly to my heart as well, I thank you guys all sincerely. Just because your name is not here doesn't mean I don't thank you as well! So, yeah..but really, I'll see everybody next year, right? ^^ I can't wait!
<33, Rayne
Where dreams were made; 1:44 PM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
I updated all the songs at my melodies column. (: Some songs Sarah has posted at my combined blog (actually only one: Pearl Harbor) and the rest are songs that I like. The old songs were getting..a little stale.
Oooh, the last song is from Ranma 1/2 which is an anime. ^^ I like the song -it's really cute to listen to and it's cheerful. (Okay, I must sound really superficial and frivolous like one of those millionaire rich girl who goes, "Aww, such a cute widdle babyyy!!" Well, I do do that sometimes, I admit. Babies are just so cute! Oh gosh, I'm turning superficial! XD)
Anyway, lyrics!
Darlin'
Just for me matte 'ru wa
Kokoro ni zoku-zoku agetai
Anata no yubisaki ga izanau romansu
Unmei-goto kitto Fallin' love
Tonight Fushigi ne Umi-zoi ni tometa kuruma
Sou futari wa konna chikaku ni ite mo
Mienai baria jama shite 'ru no wa naze
Namida afuresou
Darlin'
Just for you mayowanai
Tobikiri doki-doki kudasai
Anata no hitomi kara hajimaru romansu
Dare ijou ni suki yo Catch my love
Tonight Mitsumete hajimete tsuketa kuchibeni
Demo anata wa sotto koi wo sorasu no
Ima taisetsu ni omotte kureru no nara
Dakishimete hoshii
Darlin'
Just for me matte 'ru wa
Kokoro ni zoku-zoku agetai
Anata no yubisaki ga izanau romansu
Unmei-goto kitto Fallin' in love
Tegakari no nai yasashisa dake ja
Setsunai My heart
Ai wa itsu mo Loneliness
Ude no naka e Ah
Darlin'
Just for me matte 'ru wa
Kokoro ni zoku-zoku agetai
Anata no yubisaki ga izanau romansu
Unmei-goto kitto Fallin' love
And the translation:
Darlin'
Just for me, I'm waiting for you
I want to give you my excited heart
You point in the direction of romance
each person is probably destined to fall in love
Tonight is mysterious. A parked car by the sea-side
Yes, two people are there. Very close
Why is there a disturbing, invisible barrier
The tears overflow
Darlin'
Just for you I've decided
Give me an outstanding heartbeat
From your eyes begins romance
I love you more than anyone, catch my love
Tonight gaze at me, I'm wearing lipstick for the first time
But you softly turn away from my love
You think of me as beloved
I wat you to embrace me
Darlin'
Just for me, I'm waiting for you
I want to give you my excited heart
You point in the direction of romance
each person is probably destined to fall in love
Give me just on hint of your feelings
Ah, my sentimental heart
Love is always lonliness
So, hold me in your arms
Darlin'
Just for me, I'm waiting for you
I want to give you my excited heart
You point in the direction of romance
each person is probably destined to fall in love
Note that I actually reduce the size so as to save space. X) Though why I do that, I have no idea. Maybe out of consideration for you guys reading my blog, so that you don't have to scroll all the way down, and miss whatsoever philosophical things that I'm going to say, before cursing and scrolling ALL the way up, again missing whatsoever I wanted to say. =/
No, but not today, I don't have any reflections to say whatsoever. So I shall just describe my feelings today.
Mostly missing Sarah's blunt wit and her exasperating, irritating correction of my spelling, grammer, and usage of words, with a touch of lethargy because I've spent the morning grocery-shopping, and just before dinner sleeping. And in the afternoon posting in my combined blog. Melancholy and wistfulness is as usual always there, with depression hidden somewhere in the folds of my personality. And when I give it a good shaking it'll rise up like dust to smother me, to choke me, and I'll become pessimistic again. Sigh. What a load of troubles my personality gives me...!!
And hilarity of a sorts, since I'm talking to Lu Chang now. Here, something we've been talking about:
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
lolx
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
y?
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
nothing
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
just asking.
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
out of curiosity
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
but now I wished I hadn't.
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
I feel like a dwarf beside you.
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
or a mushroom to a normal avg. person.
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
LOL
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
really!
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
no lor
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
i got a friend 192
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
PETER CROUCH
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
ARGH
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
then i lik drawft beside him
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
that what am I, an amoeba?
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
=.=
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
lolx
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
are you planning to grow any taller?
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
yes
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
duh..
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
nyyaaah.
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
whyy??
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
you are already so taller
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
*tall
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
let people like me have a chance to catch up@
...Rayne; Moonshine says:
*!
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
hahah
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
catch la
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
xD
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
i dont mind
-=[ normal sch = 5 days a week holiday = go bak sch 5 days a week ]=- says:
MIHHAHHAHA
Seriously, that guy is so tall. Sigh. It'll take a miracle, a stretching board of some sorts and for me to be as elastic as rubber to catch up to him. I feel like a midget beside him. And JX and Nancy, come to think of it. ARGH. I feel like a mushroom (no offence to Mushroom, dear) on the sidewalk, just positively waiting for someone to come and TRAMPLE me to add colour to my life. I'm surrounded by giants. Even Sarah's taller than me. :/
I can't wait to grow taller. Oh, wait a minute, those things are genetic, aren't they? Sheesh. ><
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 9:17 PM
Friday, November 24, 2006
Quiz!! Quiz!!
Name: Rayne
Birthday : 16th September
Eye colour: Dark dark brown
hair colour: Same colour as my eyes.
right-handed or left handed??: Right
heritage: Chinese
worst habit: Being depressed and pessimistic.
zodiac sign: Virgo
the shoes you wore today: Um...I don't know.
your weakness: Actually, loads of stuff. XD I'm not going to list them here, in case someone blackmails me.
Your fears: Thrill rides. Creepy crawlies.
Your perfect pizza?: Hawaiian.
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: ...
Thoughts First Waking Up: Owww...I hurt!
Your Best Physical Feature: I don't know. :/
Your Bedtime: Yesterday? 11 or 12...somewhere in the middle.
Your Most Missed Memory: The times I spend with my friends.
MY FAVORITES
Food?: I got loads!
Sport?: Netball. Badminton.
Animal?: Cats! They remind me of myself. (:
Ice Cream?: Ben and Jerry's Fossil Fuel
Candy?: I like all candy. Except for peppermint.
Store?: I don't really care...
Salad Dressing?: Thousand island..?
Actor?: Um...I don't really care.
Song?: From this moment.
Letter: S. XD
Number: 16!
Gum?: Spearmint
Holiday?: Perth, or Japan.
Season?: Autumn.
Toothpaste Flavor?: Mint, I suppose.
Radio Station?: I rarely listen.
Perfume?: They make me sneeze.
Scent besides perfume?: Rain-scent.
Body part on the opposite sex?: Hands, I suppose.
FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: Umm...
How Do You Want To Die?: In my sleep, with my family around me.
Turn ons: Books, computer, friends...etc.
turn offs: Homework. Projects. Exams.
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?: Sarah. She wins hands down. XD
Who's The Loudest?: JX. When she wants to be.
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: Oooh...toughie...Either Muni, Sarah or Nancy. But I think Sarah, because I've known her the longest, and also because we are both crazy. X))
Who Have You Known The Longest?: Longest...Cherry. Known her since Primary 1, I think, isn't it?
Who's The Shyist?: Glory!!
When Have You Cried The Most?: This year, I think. Or the previous year.
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: Laughing with your friends.
Worst Feeling?: When I wake up in the morning with a bad headache and a sore throat.
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: In my country. After all, I've lived here all my life.
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?: I think I'm pretty fine with the way I am..apart from my pessimism.
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?: Do I really need to answer that? We know life is fleeting. (:
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let's walk on the: clouds and watch life go by.
Let's look at the: moon and watch it shatter.
What a nice: day to break my heart
Where did all the: love in the world go?
Why can't we: love without any hesitation?
Silly, little: infatuated me.
Isn't it weird that: people cry for the silliest reasons?
Never under any circumstance: would I ever, EVER go on a roller coaster.
I wish: that I understood the criteria for infatuation and love.
Everyone has a: heart which can love.
I am: just another person in this world of busy people, trying to understand what I do not.
HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love?: I suppose not.
Mooned Someone?: What's that?
Been Rejected?: I have never confessed yet. So, no.
Ran Away From Home?: Nup.
Pictured Your Crush Naked?: Erm..I haven't reached that level yet, and I have no wish to.
Skipped School?: I had permission.
Thought About Suicide?: Yes, but not onto myself.
Slept Outside?: Does school count?
Laughed So Hard You Cried?: Yes!! With Sarah, my mom and Gloria.
Cried In School?: Yeah...
Thrown Up In School?: Mmhmm. I had stomach flu, and not only once.
Wanted To Be a Model?: Never.
Cheated On Someone?: Um....I don't think so.
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: YES! XD
Seen A Dead Body?: No.
Drank Alcohol?: Yeah, but I didn't really enjoy any of them.
Smoked?: No.
Been On Drugs?: Nada.
Eaten Sushi?: Duh.
Been On Stage?: Yes.
Gone Skinny Dipping?: No.
Shoplifted?: Of course not.
IN A BOY...
Fav Eye Color:: As long as we are in love, who cares?
Fav Hair Color:: See the above answer.
Short or Long Hair:: See the above answer.
Height:: Taller than me, I suppose.
Weight:: Fit enough.
Best Clothing Style:: Casual.
RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?: Rome.
Number Of CD's I Own:: 2.
Your Good Luck Charm: Don't have one.
How many pillows do you sleep with?: 3.
Do you drink milk?: Yes.
Person You Hate Most:: I try not to hate..?
Most Outdated Phrase:: ...
Where do you think we go when we die?: Heaven.
How many rings until you answer the phone?: I don't count, but usually I answer it as fast as I could.
Are you a health freak?: Nope.
Are you a virgin?: Duh.
If you could travel into space, where would you go?: Neptune.
What is the worst weather?: Stuffy, hot day with haze that makes everybody cranky.
Did you play with Barbies as a child?: Yes. Second-hand ones from my younger cousins, and one that I recieved for my christmas present.
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 1:47 PM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Ahhh...it hurts. My butt hurts, my hand hurts, and I've got a blister on my ankle. So yes, it hurts as well.
But it was so much fun!! ^^
Okay, I shall start from the beginning.
I woke up around 7.30 AM, and rang Muni up to wake her up so that she won't be late. Her mother answered, and she yelled for Muni to come to talk to me. Muni sounded grumpy when she finally answered the phone. XD
I arrived at Entertainment Center about 9.30, saw that KFC wasn't even opened yet, so I decided to go to the MRT station to wait for my friends to come. After a while, I gave up, so I went into Entertainment Center...and saw Nancy waving from Mcdonalds. Gracey arrived a short while later after me, followed by JX, and then Muni, who WAS still late, anyway. =.= I jumped out of my seat and ran to her, because she didn't see us at the Mcdonalds. So yes, we all met in Mcdonalds. Later, when Teesh hasn't shown up, Nancy called her, and we found out that she was at the ice skating rink already. So we all went up to join her so that we could begin ice skating!!
I went out onto the ice...and promptly fell. A note, I've NEVER ever gone ice skating before, so to go onto the ice is already...an accomplishment? A feat? *Righteous indignation* Well anyway, with the coaching of my friends, I started skating with the help of the railing. (Actually, I cheated at first. I used my hands to pull myself along the railing until Nancy caught me at it. XD) Gracey helped me by holding me and skating alongside me so that I can gain my balance. I fell a lot of times, but all beginners do..right? :/ There was once which I fell, then pulled myself up...then promptly fell again. o.O But in the end, I managed to skate...more or less.
I had to stop for awhile, because I had a pain in my ankle whenever I skated. Something was rubbing against my skin, so I had a blister. I got a plaster (courtesy of teesh) and an extra sock from Gracey. So my blister had protection, though it still hurt whenever I skated.
Somewhere in the middle of our ice skating, when I was skating reasonably well (though still getting into scrapes) there was this guy wearing a red shirt, and he was a beginner (or so it seemed) too like me, and he was skidding. He yelled, "Sorry! Sorry! Sorry! Sorry" before we heard a loud BANG! as he crashed into the railing. XD I think he was okay though.
JX AND I CANNOT SKATE SIDE BY SIDE. The distance between us were too close, and she fell, at the same time kicking my skate, so I fell on top of her. :/ She pulled herself up first, then she pulled me up. Another time, I was skidding and clutched her to stop myself, and we almost fell AGAIN. So when we skate together, we usually keep a distance apart, or one in front of another.
Then Nancy and Teesh tried to sabotage me by catching hold of my hands, skating around the rink and then slamming me into the railing. Gracey had been catapulted by them before already, and so then they tried to do the same to me. I think because I'm a beginner, the first time they tried to do that, I made them fall down (NOT intentionally, contrary to what Nancy says) and the second time I almost made them fall down again, but we managed to catch the railing in time. They never tried to catapult me again. XD
Another time I was skating by myself, but there was this guy in front of me, about my age, I think. He was holding another young girl by the hand, and they were skating slowly. I didn't want to crash into them, so I just kept saying, "Sorry sorry sorry sorry...!!" and pushed the boy. (He didn't fall down, thank goodness) and then I just halted. =.= Sigh.
Nancy brought Mushroom, and I was happy at first. I haven't seen that boy for a few months already..!! But then she brought him onto the rink, and threw him in the air. SHE DROPPED HIM A FEW TIMES ONTO THE RINK. Despite that she says that other people made her drop Mushroom, it is her responsibility to not make him drop..!! Poor Mushroom. I, as your godmother, sympathises.
After that, Gracey had to go for her tuition. We communicated for a while at the crack near the glass of the railing, and I and she did some miming while waiting for the others to skate up so that they can say bye to her. She was eating instant noodles with an egg, and it looked so nice..!!! D:
After ice-skating, we went to IMM to eat, then Daison to buy Muu's sweets. I bought the fizzy soda sweets, and she bought vitamin C ones with the lemon flavour inside. Nancy bought some balls and a bamboo thingy to lay her paintbrushes on to dry, and JX bought some marbles, Teesh some iron-ons. While looking for our stuff, we kind of lost Nancy, so after buying everything, JX and Teesh went back first. I had to call Nancy on my hp, and we waited for awhile before spotting her at the caisher paying for her things.
We went back by shuttle bus, and Muni told me a very funny story about..clouds. XD Seriously, Muu, I've never notice clouds when I was walking, but when we got down from the shuttle bus, I was surrepitiously (sp?) studying them in the hopes of seeing..what you saw. X)) In the middle of our journey, I was just thinking how fast time went, and I said, "How fast time flies," then, "Before you know it, our lives would be over." And dear darling Muni, who has a VERY vivid imagination, started thinking of a bus crash. o_O"" I didn't meant that our lives would be over THAT soon...!! I was just...thinking. XD
And so that ends my first ever skating trip. Ice skating is fun..but I was glad to be back on solid ground with a wider base area than two metal rods. Ah well. I don't mind going again. (:
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 4:12 PM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Apologies. I have been abandoning this blog in search of other mindless -and trivial- pleasures, trying to seek refuge from my (can I say? Is it to be said?) thoughts which fly towards me like arrows seeking their target. And usually, they manage to find their spot, and let me tell you, it hurts.
Ho hum. So much for melodramatic words and Sarah-ish like phrases. Where is the Rayne in all of this? I have been in Aeryn's company far too long. No offence, dear. (:
You know sometimes you just feel so reflective of everything that you just want to stand there and drink in everything, all the sounds and scents around you? (By the way, scent is such a nicer word than smell) Yes, today was one of those times. I took off my glasses because I had a headache, and my glasses were misty. Everything was blurry, as expected, but if I closed my eyes and listen, everything just seems...so much sharper in my mind's eye. Is that what we're supposed to do, cast away our dull, weak physical eyes, and instead use your mind's eye, or your heart to actually see what is not? The physical world would just melt away, leaving behind the spiritual world, or the essence of the world without our shape to confine it to its duties.
Or maybe that's just my fantasy, or my melodramatic thoughts. Sigh. It is just so hard to be reflective and pen your thoughts down, only to realise when you read them again that they are nothing more but drama. I do so not like being a drama queen, and I have no intention of being one. (Although it tempts me.)
As I walked home, it started to rain. Oh yes, something else about that element of nature that I share my name-sake with. I have developed a love-hate relationship with it. Sometimes, when it is being all stormy and windy, I positively hate it, because it makes my shoes wet, my bag wet and my uniform wet, and it makes my shoes squelch. Oh, and it wets my socks too, so I move like a duck, trying to avoid stepping too hard. It just feels so horrible with wet socks and wet shoes, and the water splashes up to my leg if I'm not careful. Also, in the bus, when I have the air-con blasting at me, I start to get a headache, and I shiver, and my hands get as cold as ice. You get the general idea.
But sometimes, when it is stormy and I am indoors, I glorify in it, the power I see it has over the trees and the fragile blades of grass which looked as though they were going to be uprooted any instant. (Hardly likely they do, grass is much more sturdy then I thought it is.) But one thing I absolutely disapprove is going outside after a huge storm and seeing the poor mushrooms with their stems broken and their caps beaten by rain. I don't like anything bullying mushrooms -I just have a soft spot for them. And oh, the smell the wind brings to you when you open the classroom window! Have you ever smelt what a storm smells like? Not after a storm, but when the storm is progressing. There is a difference. The storm-scent is more..raw, more rugged and belongs to Nature more then anything else. The rain-scent is different. I would come to that later.
I do like a small drizzle though, because I can walk in it. I like the feeling of rain on my head (Haha, Raindrops falling on my head comes to mind) and the dampness of my hair when I touch it. Normally I'll remove my glasses so that I can lift my face to the heavens and let the rain wash off whatever worry and frustration I feel...and just let me enjoy the rain's healing, just for awhile. But no, I do not usually do that. Just sometimes, when I feel especially cloudy and blue. Oh, and the rain-scent. It is the same as that after the rain. It smells clean, more gentle than the storm-scent, and brings the smell of fresh dirt and grass. It relaxes me. After the rain, I like opening the classroom window (preferably when there are not as many people in the classroom, I don't understand this reason of mine. Probably some kind of weird phobia again. -.-) and leaning half-way out of the window, drinking in the smell and holding my hand out to the rain so that I can catch the last few drops. And rarer still, that elusive rainbow in the sky. How many times have I seen a rainbow? I can't remember, but I think I can show you the number on my eight fingers and two thumbs. And yes, a rainbow is just so pretty, isn't it? I bet you that when I finally spot a rainbow one day again, I would point to it and yell, "Rainbow!" the same way I yell, "Mushroom!" Because..let's just say I have a soft spot for both. (:
A soft drizzle is very nice to run in, too! Remember, guys, when we used to run rounds around the track, and we would aim for those puddles to run into? I find that I do not tire as easily when running in the rain, mostly because I am too busy occupying myself with rain than with the thoughts of fatigue. Ever wonder why poets make use of rain, as well? Because rain is a form of poetry, as well. I'm serious. The pattering of rain can lull a baby to sleep, and for me, it's just another symphony of Nature, and just as soothing as classical music. Whenever it is raining heavily, I wish that I'm not in school or in the bus, but at home, cozily tucked into my bed drinking hot tea with a good book... (Cynical self goes: Dream on.)
So many things I feel about that element of nature. And I wonder why Sarah and Viv actually picked this name for me. Well, of course I like it, but what put that thought in their mind, in the first place?
*smiles* This is a long post. To make up for my silence these past few days, I suppose.
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 5:41 PM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
"Whatever you do, don't rush into things. You must learn to wait patiently, for everything."
That was the first sentence that was drilled soundly in my head by him. He repeated this every day, when he taught me how to fight, how to wield a sword and a spear. He emphasized it even more in my lessons, or just before my practice tests. Once, I had asked him, "Everything? Including love?"
He'd tipped my chin up to look at him squarely in the face. I remembered how handsome he'd looked, with his dark hazel eyes full of an emotion that I could not identify. "Especially love," he said empathetically. "Do not rush into a relationship, and take love for flattery, especially when that's the first boy to flirt with you. That's the worst folly a girl can ever make, and I don't want you to go to that path, you understand?"
I'd studied his face, realising that he was deadly serious. Slowly, hesitantly, I nodded myhead. "I understand."
He loves her. She didn't know it then, but she loves him, too. Their story? Just one of a million -no, billion- love stories that go around in the world. Because I'm their creator of their love story, I'm determined to give them the most burning love any couple could hope to have. But their story will have to wait...until I can solve my own mystery first. After that -who knows?
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 2:10 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Sometimes...don't you just look back on the past and wonder how you meet some of your closest friends?
Well, I did today, just for fun. (My mom caught me thinking about it when I went to the market with her, and she said I looked so toot standing there absently pushing the trolley. XD Trust me, that was NOT my intention.)
Okay, let's see. Sarah, I know I met in Primary 4...but I can't remember how I actually talked to her at first. I think I started talking to her first - I thought that she had those kind of...inner magnetic field that draws people to her. Yes, dear, you have that kind of unique personality, even though you are so introverted. Well, good for me, I suppose (no, don't throw stuff at me) because I would get jealous if you talk to anyone else as intimately as you talk to me. D:
Vivienne...I met in Primary 4 as well. First impression of her? Very guai and quiet. Pretty, too. ^^ Can't remember how I first talked to her, though. Hmm..then we went to Primary 6 and became best friends with Sarah and Swetha. Well, my impression of her hasn't changed much, only that she inspires me. Well, what can I say? She is one of those kind of people who just is so pure, yet you know you can have a good time with her AND still confide things to her.
Swetha - ooh la la. I only got to really know her in Primary 6. Well, actually I knew her in Primary 5, when we played while waiting for the 4 pm bus to arrive to send us home. She was the cute one, the wacky, funny one who does stuff so unexpectedly, so full of her own style that we can't help but burst out laughing. Also, she's a very good companion, and someone I can confide to. Always. (:
Mmm...Gloria. First time I met her, we were in Primary 4, or 5 I think. She was sitting with me. (I CAN'T believe you forgot I was in the same class as you, Gloria!! ><) Then I met her again in Primary 6 for math remedial. Then..this year. I got to know her much much better. First impression - meek. quiet.
Gracey. First really knew her when I sat with her in Term 3. That time, I thought her to be very hyper, very bouncy, very cheerful..and rather horrible in math, especially algebra. But she really wowed me with her english. First time I got a bit jealous of her. ^^ But now, of course I'm still jealous of her! But in a friendly way; I mean, I am jealous of a lot of people I'm with friends with.
JX: One of the first people not from RGPS that I knew. First known her at Orientation when she asked me, "Are you Pearlyn Chua?" XD Then, she talked to me and Gloria all through Orientation Night and nearly scared us silly because she did this ghost imitation thingy...somemore we were sitting at the back of the 112 line. >< Thought she was...really drama at first, but I changed my impression when I really got to know her in term 3 and 4, when she sat behind me.
(If you noticed, most people's first impressions don't seem to be correct. Yet it influence whatever feelings they have towards the other person. Hunh. When I first got to know Gracey, I thought her a little annoying, because she was always so cheerful and stuff. But now that I know her, her cheerfulness and optimism takes my head off being pessimistic and cynical. It acts as a balm against all the negavity my personality generates. In a way, she shields me the way Vivienne does, which is a comfort to me. ^^)
Muni, darling, darling Muu!! I've said this many times, but I'll just say it again. We only got to know each other well during the LAST week of school. Sometimes, I feel as if it was God's will to draw each other together, so that we can get to know each other better. Well, I'm thankful for that, because she has been recipient to a different facet of me. (: My first impression of her...rather sarcastic and dark, but mostly neutral because I didn't know her AT ALL. Really. But I also thought her brave, because she actually shouted for Liz to not cover the gun with her hand. And well, kind of scolded her. But she meant it for Liz's sake - I could tell that she was really scared of what could have happened if that toy gun went off.
Nancy. Ermm...first time I ever talked to her directly was to ask her something. I can't remember what now...but I always got the idea that she was a leader (because of the vice-chair thingy) and one of the "popular ones", and she WAS popular, and very very atheletic. I remember looking at the CCA results for the try-outs and she was always almost at the top of every list she signed up for. =/ Some people are just so good.
If I keep going on for some more people I swear, I'm going to put down every single friend I've met over the years. ^^ So I'm going to call a halt. Isn't it fun to reminiscence on the good ol' days, when everybody is just so new to you?
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 8:44 PM
Friday, November 17, 2006
Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
We are what we don't see. Is it true? That somewhere in us there is something much more precious, much more infinite than who we already know we are?
I'm troubled by the way people think. Is it fair, right, that we point at things to blame for our own troubles? I mean, we can say that the world gave us all our problems, all our weariness - but isn't it our choice to choose how to react to it?
Is it not that without problems, there would not be the relief or pleasure of answers? Is it not that without weariness, we wouldn't be able to wake up one day feeling refreshed and energised?
I think of that at times. I confess - I do it as well. Sometimes I just feel like looking up and moaning, "Oh, why me?" But you know...while it is easy to put the blame on something or someone else, we need to look into our soul to find out our own problems. Seek out the invisible worms in us.
Easier said then done. Is it not human nature by default to blame and judge others? We need to get rid of this habit, and fast. It would not do for us to live like that.
Me and myself...I keep thinking about this matter, and keep blogging about it. Doesn't it happen to all of us? How can we change it, and where exactly is the limit? Sometimes, some problems just can't be solved. Sometimes, we have to let go, and just watch it go past us. Ponder about it, but do not try to solve it. We do not know everything. We are not omni-potent. Only God is.
On a lighter note, I managed to salvage my Nanowrimo! I still had a copy of it in my mom's laptop, so I could just transfer it over. ^^ Relief.
I look back at my blog...and now that I'm reading it again, there are some things I regret posting. I wish I can just delete them..but they serve as a mistake-indicator for me, to remind me whenever I'm about to commit the same offence.
One of them are posts about who I like.
No, seriously. They were meant to be private, not to let the whole world into what was going on in my heart. And ever since I posted them, people know I have somebody I like. Which is not good, because they were not supposed to know. Once I've posted them, I may as well shout it from my school's rooftop, or dish out leaflets for the whole school to know. Or the whole world.
And I know that she is beginning to suspect me. Heck, maybe she even knows that I like her already. I'm not ready. It was supposed to be a secret, for heaven's sake. But like Nancy said, what is a secret if everyone knows about it?
Sheesh. One of the major mistakes so far for my blogging life.
So when I see my blog again, all I can think is sardines. Sardines, sardines, sardines. It's okay to let people into my head, but not into my heart, especially when they are total strangers or not so close friends. Argh. What have I done now?
I'm not going to delete them, as I said before. Hopefully I can cure myself of this habit of relating all my secrets out to the entire world. If I can't keep my own secrets, how can I keep others? How would I be reliable to others?
So, hopefully, I can change.
Hopefully.
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 9:52 PM
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUU!!!!
I'm so happy to be back..!! Going to Bangkok was..erm..interesting, to say the least, but I still love my homeland the most. (:
Yep. Anyway, I typed loads of words on my Nanowrimo and put it into my com, ready to do it the first thing today.
Bu-ut....
As luck would have it, my com crashed. From the USB port. So there goes my new copy of Nanowrimo until my dad can fix my com. :(( So, no Nanowrimo. No writing.
I reached home at around 11 yesterday, and slept at 1 am. Woke up around 6 just to go to school to collect my new report and hand up my confi card. Was standing outside the Queens staffroom waiting for Mdm Roz. to give me my new report when I met Sarah! :D Wheee...haven't seen her ever since I went to Bangkok. Missed her. Well I went over to talk to her, and she said she was involved in a foreign student orientation thingy. I didn't expect to see her at the classroom near the Queens though. ^^
And I turned around...and I saw Nancy! Wondered why I didn't see her earlier - you know how tall she is. Talked to her for a bit, then I saw Mdm Roz come out.
And so that ends my impromptu meeting with Sarah and Nance.
I would post about my musings later, or on my comb. blog. Got so much to post about. o_O
Repetition: Happy birthday, muu!! I got your present all waiting for you already... *hint hint* X))
Rayne.
Where dreams were made; 5:38 PM
Friday, November 10, 2006
Quiz! Quiz!
F1: Nancy
F2: Gracey
F3: Muni
F4: Sarah
F5: JX
M1: Alvin
M2: Shi Cheng
M3: John
M4: Lu Chang
M5: Wei Jie
O1: Nancy JR. XD
O2: Ipod (i really really want one)
O3: Computer
O4: Marley and Me (It's a book)
O5: Tablet!! (I want one too!!)
questions:
what if F1 and M2 dated?
....Erm. Firstly, he's too short. Secondly, they weren't make an ideal pair. I'll BREAK THEM UP. X))
what if M5 ate O1?
Huhh if he dares..!! Anyway, he doesn't eat much of anything except for chicken wings. o.O
are M4 and F2 compatible?
Hmmm...maybe. Well, you never know. (:
would you buy 03 as a present for F2?
She has one. And I'm not so rich, anyway.
how did you meet F3?
In Sec 1!! (:
how did u meet M1?
I suppose my mom kind of introduced him to me. o.O
what would you do if M1 and M4 dated?
No. Freaking. Way. That thought gives me goose bumps. x.X
what's the probability of matchmaking F1 and O5?
Mmm..Possible. Nancy, would you like a tablet?
does F4 like 04?
I should think so. It is a book about a labrador retriever. (:
how are you related to M1?
He's my cousin.
describe F2:
(I believe I've done this before) She is VERY bouncy, VERY hyper, VERY cheerful, VERY happy and inspires me a lot. (: She reminds me of a cat, and she positively squeaks when she coughs.
what if M3 went overseas?
doesn't matter. I've never met him face-to-face anyway. We can still communicate through MSN.
does M4 look like O2?
*Blinks* If only he was that portable. XD
select an object from the list to describe M2.
O2. Now, he IS portable..!! ^^ No lahz, just that he is shorter than me, that's all.
~~~*~~~
Today
1. Is: a boring rainy day
2. Got any plans: pack my luggage.
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: NOTHING! Tomorrow I'm flying~
Best
1. Friends: Sarah! Swetha! Vivienne!
2. Vacation: Toughie. Erm..either the one to Perth with Swetha and Sarah or the Japan one.
3. Day of the week: Friday. Or..that's what I used to think. Until the last day of school. :(
4. Food: Chocolate!
5. Memory: Loads! With my cousins, old friends from PEPS, Act 3, best friends, or simply with JX, Gracey, Muni and Nancy. Or with Gloria. ^^
Last
1. Person you saw: Dad.
2. Talked to on the phone: I think it was Sarah. Asking me why I dao-ed her. I didn't..!! I didn't see that MSN window.
3. Hugged: Hm. Muni, if I'm not wrong.
4. Person you texted: Nancy.
Favorites
1. Number(s) : 16, 9
2. Song: Many! But "Close to you" by the carpenters is one of my favourites...
3. Color: Red, Yellow, Blue and all the colours in between! (:
4. Season: Autumn.
Currently
1. Missing someone: ...Unfortunately. X) No, I'm just kidding. But yes, I'm missing someone(s)
2. Mood: Neutral. Reflective.
True or False
I am a morning person: I wake up around 7.30 during the holidays...does that count?
I am a perfectionist: Nah.. I can be a bit bo chap. X))
I am an only child: True!
I am currently in my pajamas: Nope. Class tee and culottes.
I am online 24/7: No! I need to sleep okay!
I am very shy around the opposite gender: Hum. Not really...I don't feel shy around Lu Chang or Shi Cheng.
I can be paranoid at times: Yes. I mean, who DOESN'T?
I currently regret something that I have done: ..yes. ARGH I shouldn't have posted that. But I did. So...
I enjoy talking on the phone: It's okay. But I don't like it when I'm eating my dinner half-way and I have to answer the phone with the chopsticks in my mouth...
I have a secret: I have many secrets. Choose one! (:
Rayne!
Where dreams were made; 12:05 PM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Okay, I finally got the initiative to post after I saw Muni's. XD
I'm not posting the whole thing though. For some other details go to Muu's blog.
At Long John's, it was very very very lucky for Nancy that I managed to cut my chicken properly. (She was sitting next to me.) The last time I went there I er...sawed a hole in the black plastic plate, scattered my fries all over the place and elbowed the person sitting next to me really painfully. (So sorry! ><) Nancy, you are one lucky person, you know that?
(Sorry Muu for sandwiching you between me and Nancy to be our messenger. But really... Okay, I'm not going to say anything else. (: )
I didn't know that Muni went to my combined blog. o_O"" Anyway, yes, I did post something about the difference between crushing on boys and girls so you can check it out. (Which, btw, there really IS a huge difference.)
Okay, to explain more about the laughing thing. I think Nancy said something. One of us did, at any rate. So I was just staring at Muni, and then she suddenly turned and looked straight at me.
Then we burst out laughing. I was thinking about Gracey's tagboard, (NO Nancy, don't go there. But then I think you would anyway. -.-") but I didn't know what Muni was thinking about. And so, that's the gist of it.
Rayne.
P.S: Sorry for the abrupt ending. LISTEN TO THE SONGS, guys! XD
Where dreams were made; 6:33 PM
Guys, listen to the carpenters. Their songs are really really nice...even though they are so old. Go listen to them below. (:
I seem to have a penchant for old songs now. Somehow. XD
Yepp, anyway today was fun going out with everybody, but I'm not going to blog about it. Because well...I don't feel like it now. Maybe later. If I want to...
I shall pester Muu to do it instead. (:
*pesters Muni on MSN*
You know, a supposedly secret just gets out and spreads to almost everybody, and we speak about it so openly, and that person we are talking about is so oblivious about the whole thing. XD In the first place, that secret was NOT suppose to be known to almost everybody and be discussed so freely at PUBLIC places like tagboards *ahem. ahem* and when the person is just so near you. >_> So it is very very LUCKY that that person is so...blur, and clueless. (: If she/he is so sharp, I think me and the people involved would be...in very big trouble. The result would be DISASTROUS, I tell you.
(Lol Muni, remember when we went to eat at Food Republic I was staring at you, and you just turned your head to look at me, and we both started laughing? If you were thinking what I was thinking, then it would be very VERY funny. X)) )
Okay okay, I'm going to stop typing about private things and post the songs below.
Enjoy, guys. (:
Rayne
P.S: Sorry if it slows down the whole loading thingy. I know how irritating it is..but these songs are really nice. You'll not REGRET waiting for the whole thing to load. Really. It's worth it. (: Even if you don't want to listen to the songs LISTEN TO THE LAST ONE. I tell you, it's the best song. Ever.
Where dreams were made; 5:09 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I just created -I think- my longest blog post ever. It's the post below this one. That's what happens when Rayne is too lazy to create another post. o_O"
Anyway, I'm creating another one. So you can't say that I'm lazee. Hah.
A - Available: Mmhmm...
A - Age: Not to be disclosed. This is cyberspace, for heaven's sake. Well, there are many clues around but no way I'm going to smack it right dab into their faces.
A - Annoyance: Something I may be prone to.
B - Best Friend: Sarah, Swetha, Vivienne
B - Band: Westlife. Not really that crazy over them, but their songs are nice.
B - Birthday: 16th September
C - Crush: Ohh okayy...that is REALLY private.
C - Country: Singapore. *My sunny island..* XDD
C - Cat: I love all cats!! But I'm most partial to somalis because of their really cute ears!!
D - Dead Pet's Name: Fish. No name. O.O
D - Dad's Name: C-O-N-F-I-D-E-N-T-I-A-L
D - Dogs: will be a better pet for me then cats. ^^
E - Easiest person to talk to: Gracey! Or Muni. Or Sarah. Hm.
E - Eggs: are nice no matter whatever way you cook 'em. Unless you burn them of course. Even when they're raw if you put them over cooked rice it's yummyyy...
E - Email: Not telling.
F - Favorite color: Ooh loads. Red and orange and black and blue and purple and green and yellow and ALL THE COLOURS IN BETWEEN!!! ^^
F - Food: Many! Ahh..I'm getting hungry now. -.-"
F - Foreign Language: Japanese!!
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Worms DEFINITELY! X))
G - God: is my Father.
G - Good Times: anytime anywhere. With my friends, with my family.
H - Hair Color: Very very dark brown
H - Height: Not telling. I'm really short.
H - Happy: is something I really envy Gracey for. She's so cheerful all the time. Well, I can too of course but sometimes I just DON'T WANT TO. Warped logic. XD
I - Ice Cream: Fossil fuel from Ben and Jerry's.
I - Instrument: Piano. You ARE referring to music right?
I - Idol: None. God's not considered an idol.
J - Jewelry: erm...pretty a lot. JX's brooch and bracelet from my birthday.
J - Job: Student. Duh.
J - Jokes: Can be formed into two categories: lame and intelligent...
K - Kids: I am one.
K - Karate: is something I'll like to take, but I think I'll prefer Wushu.
K - Kung Fu: is what I'm currently learning from my dad.
L - Love or lust: Love. Definitely
L - Longest Car ride: Errrm...to M'sia?
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: Chapstick. Lipstick you may smudge your clothes, and your lips get dry really easily.
M - Milk Flavor: Chocolate.
M - Mother's Name: Same as my father's. go check above.
M - Movie Last Watched: Miss Cogenality.
N - Number of Siblings: 0
N - Name of Siblings: Me and myself.
N - Name: Rayne
O - One Wish: I want the whole 112 to stay together...
O - One Phobia: Ermm..creepy crawlies in general.
O - Otter Pop: Huh?
P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Married.
P - Part of your appearance you like best: Hm. I have no idea.
P - Part of your Personality you like best: See the answer above.
Q - Quick or Slow?: Alternative.
Q - Queer or Straight?: Straight..
Q - Queen or King?: Queens!
R - Reason to smile: Anything!
R - Reality TV Show: Fear Factor and many many others. ^^
R - Right or Left: Right.
S - Song Last Heard: Eternal Flame
S - Series: ??
S - Sex: o_O""
T - Time you woke up: 7.30 am
T - Time Now: 6.18 pm
T - Time for bed: Errm...don't have one.
U - Unknown: What? Me or you?
U - Unicorns: are pretty creatures!
U - U are: who you are. Well, duh.
V- Vegetable you love: Broccoli. Lady's fingers. Bitter gourd. I like almost all veggies!! ^^
V - Vegetable you hate: Canned peas. But I would eat them if I have no choice.
V - View on Politics: ...
W - Worst Habit: Sinking into depression every few seconds
W - What's up: Nothing.
W - Wijadija: Very very creative word. Now then, can you pronounce it?
X - X-Rays: I had one before
X - X-Rated: Er.
Y - You have something to say?: If I had, I would have already.
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: is a nice cheery colour and it reminds me of Gracey.
Z - Zoo Animal: Ooooh..many!! ^^
Z - Zodiac: Rooster
Z - Zoolander: .....
Rayne!
Where dreams were made; 5:58 PM
>:( Tomorrow better be GOOD.
For those who don't know what I'm talking about, never mind.
Anyway, I'd better blog about yesterday and er...yesterday's yesterday. Oh wait- that means it's the day before. Well.
Yesterday's yesterday - or the day before. Whatever.
We had our sea sortie!! ^^ So we went to harbourfront in our NPCC uniform and met Springfield and ACSI there...then went on the boat. At first, the rocking of the boat felt pretty much okay, and so I closed my eyes and almost fell asleep. Then, the waves started to get choppier, and I felt a little woozy. You know, the kind of headachey feeling you get whenever the bus is rocking too much and you are reading a book..? I was used to it, so that was okay. Mandi was feeling giddy, and opposite me my squad mates were also feeling giddy. So we put our heads onto our arms for a while and listened to our Sirs and Ma'ams talk to us. After that I felt better, so I just leaned my head back onto the headrest and looked out of the window into the clear horizon correction, the hazy horizon and stoned for awhile. Beside me Mandi kept saying, "I'm going to die. I'm going to die" over and over again...
I think I dozed off/stoned unconciously, then I came back to reality and listened to the speaker. After that was kind of a blur for me; I only remember putting my head onto my bag on the table and sleeping, facing the window. (Luckily the speaker didn't notice, or our ma'ams for that matter. ><)
Yepp, so after that we had a bit of time to ourselves on the boat. We heard the deck was nice and there was wind, so we went out onto the lower deck. BIG MISTAKE. There was no wind there, and all we could see was the haze. x.X Not nice at all. So we went back into the cabin, wondering why they said that the deck was nice.
We had lunch after that - chicken rice. It was nice, but then I accidentally sprayed chilli sauce all over my uniform...!! ARGH. Managed to mask it up by splashing water over it, but when it dried it looked as if there were miniature red dots all over the stained area. Sardines and onions and chilli in a can...!!!! Luckily it was not that visible from afar.
The second time I went onto the deck, I went onto the upper deck. Which was so much nicer! You can really feel the wind and smell the sea breeze there. Then, we pleaded with Mr Ganesh to go onto the sun deck and he relented. And the experience just became SUPER. (:
We went down after awhile because we were going onto land (that means the police coastal guard base) and they showed us the police boats, gave us a talk on the boats as well, told us a bit of the police coastal guard base. We also did some marching. At the end, it was pretty funny, because we all, Springfield and ACSI decided to take a photo with the Sirs and Ma'ams in the background. Somehow, we got the notion that we must look quite stern and composed, until the photographer looked up and yelled, "Oi! Smile lah!" and everybody just started laughing. So, we had a laughing picture. X)
On the way back in the boat, we took our bread onto the upper deck to eat, and me, Mandi and Angie just went HIGH. We sang so many songs out onto the open sea, and laughed because we couldn't sing high (we couldn't hear ourselves over the wind) and so we just sang lustily. And we were so high we just yelled, "Sarang hae yo!" to the ocean, and everybody just starting laughing. Ahhh...so high. (:
Yesterday.
Went to Viv's house! I haven't seen her in such a long time...everytime Viv, Sarah and Swetha met I always couldn't go. So I went this time. We played taboo and boggle (our own version) then tallied up the scores. I was either third or second place, I think. I can't beat Sarah at boggle.. that's HER forte. ><
We watched Miss Congenality afterwards which was really really funny.. XD I didn't watch the whole of it last time, at least not the first part. I'm really fidgety when it came to movies...first I leaned on Sarah's shoulder. Then I lay on her lap, then back on her shoulder again. Then I complained that her shoulder was too bony (no offence, dear) and made Vivienne sit beside me so that I could lean on HER shoulder. Then the last part I started hugging Vivienne and moaning, "No, no she cannot like him!! She musn't like him! He's such a flirt!" (If you guys have watched the movie and the second one I think you guys would know what I'm talking about. Or maybe not.) Then I started shaking her as well. XD So sorry..
We went down to play tennis afterwards. I confess, I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO PLAY TENNIS but Vivienne said she'll teach me. Fine... so we went down and spent the first few minutes mopping up the tennis court. After that, we started playing. I could surf reasonably well, but after that I can't hit the ball. For some reason, I kept missing the ball!! Sheesh. But then it started to drizzle, so we wanted to rent the bowling alley, but it was an hourly slot. At that time it was already 5.30..so we decided not to.
So we trooped back upstairs and played another game of boggle, then Viv went to bathe. We tinkered at her piano for a while, then dinner time! ^^
It was vegetarian so that Swetha could eat as well. After that, we retreated into Viv's room and played PIGS, then Billionaire. We also caught up on stuff about each other, then we went home...
It is nice going out with you guys. ^^ Really, really fun! Thanks viv for organising this whole thing...
Okay. Should I post more? I want to do a quiz...
Seven memorable things this month:
1) Sea Sortie
2) Last day of school
3) Going to Food Republic with Muu and guys
4) Going to Viv's house. <33>
5) Talking to Muu while waiting for Nancy
6) Netball Carn
7) Eating at IMM with Gloria
Six people you talked face to face this week:
1)Mandi
2)Vivienne
3)Sarah
4)Swetha
5)Angeline
6)Charmaine
Five things you bought recently:
1)Sushi...
2)Old Chang Kee squid
3)A tie. X))
4)Oyster Mee Sua
5)Fried Hokkein Mee
Four people you saw today:
My family. Full-stop.
Three people you want to talk to now but can't:
1)Muni!! -Cries- I just want to talk to her....
2)Nancy. As Gracey said, the way she smiles just makes you want to smile back at her. She has this really nice dimple in the side of one cheek when she talks or smiles. (: And of course, I NEED MY BOOK BACK, NANCY.
3)Gracey. Oh mann...I really miss these three people. And everbody else, of course. T.T
Two things on your mind now:
1)When is Lunch?
2)This post is really getting too long.
Just one more quiz. To fit it in. X)
1. grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18 and find line four: "Rank which breed of dog you think is even uglier than the Xolo." (It was a reader's digest)
2.stretch your left arm out as far as you can: Air.
3.last thing you watched on TV: Erm..some ghost thingy on Channel 8. Fell asleep watching it.
4.without looking, guess what time it is: 12.20
5.the actual time? 12.19. (Whoa. I'm so good. XD)
6.what can you hear with exception of the computer? My maid frying something in the kitchen and the music from my speakers.
7.when did you last step outside?what were you doing? Yesterday to go to Viv's house.
8.what did you look at before you started this survey? Another person's blog.
9.what are you wearing? ..dress..
10.did you dream last night? maybe. I can't remember.
11.when did you last laugh?with my friends! (:
12.what is on the walls of the room you are in? Erm. the aircon. The windows. The window blinds.
13. seen anything weird lately? We-ell...define weird...
14. what do you think of this quiz? Taking up too much of this post.
15. what is the last film you saw? Miss Congenality.
16. becoming a multi-millionaire overnight,what would you buy? Hm. Let me get back to you when I do.
17. tell me something about you that i don't know: I like someone really really a lot..? Define "me". It depends on the person, you know.
18.what one thing would you change about the world? NO MORE SLASH AND BURN TECHNIQUES!
19. do you like to dance? yes.
20. George W Bush... american? Huh. Oh really?
21. if your first child is a girl,what do you call her? NANCY! XD
22. if your first child is a boy,what do you call him? Hmm...haven't really thought about that yet.
23. have you ever considered living abroad? I love my country, thank you very much.
24. what do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? You have done Me proud, child. I am very proud of you.
25. 20 people who must do this in their journal or blog: Errm...nah. I shan't be that cruel.
Rayne
P.S: Congrats for reaching the end of this really long post. I apologise..><
Where dreams were made; 11:32 AM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Skye utterly failed to notice Aerenne’s heightened colour, or her eyes flashing dangerously. As such, he did not see that punch coming, and was caught off his feet by it. The Angelicae staggered backwards, and lifted his hand to his cheek dazedly. His first thought was not one of anger, but one of admiration. That human girl sure can punch hard. Already, he could feel his cheek beginning to swell, but his magic had surged to the area, soothing the soreness and wiping off the bruise as cleanly as it would off a slate. When he finally looked up, the human had already rushed indoors –to safety from his wrath, he supposed- and shut the door. Slowly brushing himself off, he approached the door, his icy exterior already in place.
Do my Johari and Nohari window, guys! (:
http://kevan.org/johari?view=rayney
http://kevan.org/nohari?view=rayney
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 12:12 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
I'm giving up valuable NaNoWriMo time to do this, but you can bet it is worth it.
List of Memorable Events in 112:
1. The cockroach that Muni squashed - declared royal cockroach because it squirted out blue blood and made an ink-blot like stain on the floor near the back door.
2. The video that I took of Muni and JX playing "knock-knock" PLUS unheard footage of Nancy inside. Xd Muni did this cute clicky thing with her hands and it's so funny..!! And JX went, "I love you Muni" and she just went berserk running around the classroom. X))
3. "Eternal Flame" that me and Pearlyn sung unharmoniously at the bowling alley, and where Muni did her cute dancing thing. She really has dancing potential, our Muni.
4. The dare Nancy, JX, Gracey, Jaz, Muni made me do before one of the EOYs: Shouting "i love you!" to a random guy across the field.
5. During orientation when we won the "Most Motivated Class". We cheered ourselves hoarse, and I really shocked my parents with the low cheers we all did. I got a bad sore throat and flu afterwards. Also the start of the flu epidemic.
6. Me and Muni chasing Nancy all the way into the girl's toilet where Muni climbed over the toilet wall just to get her camera back. We found it ON MUTE afterwards. XD
7. Wedding of Mandi and Shiing where Lisa was the crazy standing-in priest. X)) Muu did her dare of dancing (though I didn't watch it) and my dare of kissing Gracey. On her leg. We sang karoke too. And I (and Maryam) got our first hangover (not sure about Maryam) from softdrinks.
8. ICCS (which concidentally happened to be my birthday) where we found a dead lizard and buried it. Teesh at the water trying to get the litter floating in the sea, and scooping out a sand hole maniacally. Also, we took neos later, and I got my lovely birthday presents!
9. Writing NaNoWriMo, and comparing words with Gracey and Muu!
10. Talking to Muni while waiting for Nancy, and teaching her that kiddy chinese game I used to play as a girl. We became rather good friends afterwards. Also the day she found out my secret.
11. Acting as Annie in Lit PT. I could barely see a single thing through my scotch-taped glasses...
12. Drama Night, where we rushed from school to Food Republic then back to school again. Saw channel 8 people filming (Nancy only notice the guy with his pants down.. XD I noticed the actor, then the cameras) and Muni innocently asking those questions. And the wild bus ride with Muni cursing in Long John Silver's menu. XD Also when Muni told me her crush for 2006, and we spent a long time talking and marveling about...concidences.
13. Auditioning, getting in, and having all my friends from Act 3 where I belong. That few months were really a remarkable time for me...especially with all the rushing and commitment and training. I love you guys!
14. Drama PT, also the last day which I had my drama lesson with Miss Nina. We rehearsed a lot for it, me playing the beggar with the baby. And it turned out rather a success. Only that I was having a real cough, and when they covered me with a black cloth, I was practically suffocating. So when it was over I just shot up from the cloth to breathe. It was said to be...rather freaky for me to do that.
15. Netball Carn!! Of course! With Muni being the cheer captain, and me playing WD for alternate games. 112 really cheered a lot for us, thank you! We won the shooting competition thanks to our very pro shooters, and got those coconut isotonic drinks in the end. I think it tasted pretty much okay to me. ^^
16. First neoprints taken with Maryam and guys! Thanks for "initiating" me! (Okay, that sounds wrong, but anyway) It was really fun taking neos with you guys!
17. JX SCREAMING during Orientation Night. It was really funny, because she was one of the first persons I got to know that was not from RGPS. Then Miin and Nancy. I think I first spoke to them because I needed to button up my culottes... Nancy I spoke personally to only when I asked her why she wasn't with Miin. Hm.
18. Gracey reading to me from her Christian book during EOYs. I felt really at peace then, thank you.
19. Gracey and I sharing a long marshmallow together, also during EOYs. We decided to half it after the first two bites; it looked too wrong. XD Also when she walked with me at the secret garden behind. ^^
20. I suddenly got this really random vision of Muni hiding under the desks during one practice of Drama Night audition, so I shall include that into the memorable columns. She looked like a cat then. Xd
21. When Nancy and I shared my really small umbrella to the bus stop because it was raining. I told her very clearly not to run when she sees the 105, because we'll get wet, and she said OKAY. When she saw the 105 while we were walking towards the bus stop, she suddenly screamed, "Aaah!! 105!" and ran, DRAGGING ME AND MY UMBRELLA ALONG WITH HER. So I got really wet in the end. Sheesh, Nancy!! XD
22. Auditioning for OM. I was really stressed then, sorry! Also the last day of 112 together, and Muni dishing out presents for the whole class. Afterwards, me, Muu, Gracey and JX hung about talking about our crushes, and I told JX my secret, and she told me hers. I spent most of my day hugging everybody...
23. Eating BK with JX, Muni and Gracey, then taking neos. I was really satisfied with that. At long last, I got to take neos with Gracey and Muu! Muu left her wallet on the MRT..XD
24. Going to Borders with JX, Gracey and Nancy for inspiration on script for Drama Night. We ended up reading really weird books on fashion and graffiti, then browsing through the books and movie titles and saying which ones we've got and which ones we haven't. Also deciding to go for a movie fest, although I don't know when we're going to organise it.
25. Eating sushi and stuff at IMM with Gloria! I had a really great time then. ^^
26. JX's birthday party when we went bowling. (Cont. from memory 3) Tried to force Nancy to eat mutton satay, laughing at JX when she dropped a sour berry down her shirt, and worrying about the tiramisu cake having alchohol inside. And giving JX this really nice wind chimes thing.
27. NPCC Sea cadet training!! Jumping off the jetty into the sea...I felt like I was committing suicide with a life jacket. XD
28. When Buckle won the cheerleading competition. That was really touching, I was jumping up and down and hugging everybody. The cheerleaders were crying away as well, I'm sure they tried very very hard for cheerleading. (:
29. When Muni came back to class during Drama Night to eat dinner with us, and we practically JUMPED onto her, me and JX. She shrank back literally. XD
30. Chasing Muni down onto the field so that me and Gracey could use the ribbon to tie her up. Afterwards, I bound Gracey's wrist to lead her back to the classroom, but she got free of it at the staircase.
31. Finger-painting for our mural, our S-L project. ^^ That was fun, even though we kept changing the hand colour.
EDIT: 32. The PIT and JPSL camp. Even though I didn't become a PIT, the stuff that I learnt that day would accompany me for the rest of my life.
33. NAPFA practice 2.4 km run, where me and Nana, I think, were lagging behind. So we started to walk. Nancy passed us, then went back and starting pushing us from behind, saying stuff like, "Keep running! Don't stop!" and I couldn't help wondering, "Whoa, Nancy has such good stamina." Because after a while, she took off again and she was almost at the lead. x.X Some people are just...so atheletic.
34. When we were talking to Nancy and JX and Jazlyn in Term 3. Nana just came along and BIT NANCY ON THE HEAD. I can understand biting on the hand or the wrist, but on the head?! That is a bit too far-fetched even for me. And I bite Teesh on random times too.
35. Sea sortie, where I got to ride on a boat! Didn't get sea-sickness, so proud of myself! The guy who took pictures of all the NP units together said, "Oi, smile lah!" because we looked so..stoned. So of course everybody started laughing. Me, Mandi and Angie sang so many songs on our way back to the harbour.
I think that should be all. Hmm..will edit when I find more memorable things to blog! You never know when these things pop up all of a sudden. ^^
Where dreams were made; 9:49 PM
I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you
Self-denial.
One word to sum this post up: Turbulence.
Why?
I hate chasing after you. I hate worrying about you, whatever you do, whatever scrapes you get into. I hate accessing my email day after day waiting, wishing that you would email me or sms me.
But most of all, I hate missing you.
You told me not to be so dependent on others. I'm telling you now, I can't do it. Oh sure, I can shut myself off, no problem, but that's only temporarily. I still depend on my friends, on Gracey, Muni, Sarah to give me support. I depend on them to cheer me up whenever I'm down.
I depend on you to help me with whatever I feel concerning you. But somehow, you are not always there. It's my wishful thinking, I know, when you are clearly so independent and doing whatever you like.
Despite everything I say or have said, I miss you.
I miss you, and my best friends. I miss 112 and the normalcy of going back to school. Without everybody around me, I feel lost...cut loose from what I define my life as.
When I read other blogs on my links, I feel so shattered inside. I feel so hurt knowing that you are interacting with others yet not me. It is so perverse of me, so typical. It hurts. It hurts to know that you can still evoke feelings inside me: jealousy. I suppress that feeling and most of the time I'm able to, but whenever I return to that sentence, that statement, that feeling would come back to me.
How nice if I can be seperated from my feelings for awhile. Feel numb, so that nothing can make me feel anything.
You are the cause of everything. Yet I can't say anything to you, because you won't be able to accept it. Or rather, you would say that it's not you, it's me for thinking of all these things.
And you know what? You are absolutely right.
So I'm going to hold my silence and wish that you'd never find out. That you would never know that I'm so stupid over you. So. incredibly. stupid.
When the time comes, I would be sufficiently stronger without depending on you. And I would be able to delete this post and all the other posts that made me feel so naive, now that I read it again. I may even delete this whole blog, because I don't want to be reminded of you.
So, 'til then...
Rayne
Dear Father in Heaven, please please allow me to be in the same class as Muni, Gracey, JX, Nancy, and the 112ers that I love so much. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Where dreams were made; 3:50 PM
Friday, November 03, 2006
...The last day I spend with 112.
Yet, somehow, it doesn't feel like the last day at all. We still joked as usual, laughed as usual, fought as usual. But people were giving hugs more than usual, and whenever I looked at someone, I would think, would I see them next year?
My brain refuses to acknowledge that today is the last day of our school class. Or rather, my brain understands, but my heart refuses to accept it. Ah well. At least we would still see each other next Thursday, and we would go on a class outing. And afterwards, we would still see each other, right? RIGHT?!
(:
I hugged many people today! Gracey, Muni, JX, Talia, Celeste, Yi Fei, Maryam, Joni, Angeline, Liyana, Nancy, and even Mdm Rozanah!! But I think I hugged Muni the most. It's funny, I've known her all through the year, but I only got to know her well this Monday. And afterwards, it felt as though I've known her for most of the year, judging by us talking. ^^ I'm just happy that I got to get close to yet another 112er, and not regret it!! Muni is a very nice friend. (:
In the morning, we had to go for the sec 4 farewell. At first, I paid really close attention, but afterthat, I somehow just drifted off, and my attention shifted to worrying about our OM audition which was later in the afternoon. I think it was partly due to the stifling heat...Luckily I wasn't wearing a tie.
Ah, the ties.
I forgot to bring a tie today, so I had to buy one from the PB room which costed 6.50. And afterwards, someone took my tie WHICH I LEFT ON MY TABLE. Sheesh. So I went down without a tie, and no one bothered booking me anyway. So, I just wasted money buying yet another tie. If I am really forgetful, and lose one tie every year, I would still have one to last me 'til Sec 4, no problem. Which I am not really that forgetful anyway.
After the sec 4 farewell, me, JX, Nancy and Muni dashed to the library and com lab to buy paper to print out the OM forms, which Nancy, Muni and Liyana didn't print out on their own at home. And afterwards...everybody in our OM group except for Nancy and Liyana (the former went to eat, the latter is somewhere lost) sacrificed our recess to edit the script and do our OM forms. Liyana came in a while later, then Nancy came in LAST. (><) Anyway, afterwards, it was a mad dash for us between cleaning up our classroom, memorising our lines and finishing our forms. JX, luckily, had brought the costumes and props, so we didn't have to worry about them yet. We went down for a quick lunch, then rushed to the CLC to submit our forms (we thought by 12.40, but actually we had to hand them up when we go for our audition) and rehearse. In the midst of it all, Muni went to the library to copy down some of Muni's poems to present to the judges. Nancy...tagged along, for some unkown reason. We were discussing the script with JX about how to make it funnier, and suddenly she just left. With Muni. O.O By that time, JX and I were getting pretty anxious and stressed up. We started prodding the others to memorise their lines, and rehearse once through with stand-ins for Nancy and Muni. Afterwards, me and Gracey went up to find Nancy and Muni, and brought them down for one rehearsal. After that..
The OM audition was pretty much okay...but I have a feeling I won't get in. After the whole she-bang was over, Nancy and Nana went to get their photos to hand up with their OM forms. The rest of us just stood around...and talked. About private things. (:
Nancy wanted to go home after that, Nana need to do her digital portfolio, and me, JX, Muu and Gracey wanted to go Far East. When we were walking to the bus stop, I spotted this HUGE mushroom trampled near a tree. Being me, I pointed and shouted, "Mushroom!!" because, well, I've never seen such a big mushroom, at least not near RGS. How was I supposed to know that Nancy would take my comment?!
NANCY, DON'T YOU CALL HIM MUSHROOM. PLEASE, PLEASE, CALL HIM SOMETHING MORE UNIQUE THEN MUSHROOM, OKAY?!
Anyway, we went to Far East and bumped into Maryam, Joni and Angie in BK. What a nice surprise!! (: After a short while, we left to take neos.
I must say, this time, the neos came out pretty well. And Muu looked so cute in a top hat. XD That was my first time taking neos with Muni and Gracey, and hopefully, it won't be the last.
The thing that irks me the most is that the Higher Malay, the Chinese and the AEP people get to STICK TOGETHER. So that means that Muni, JX and Nancy would almost certainly be in the same class, leaving me and Gracey floundering nowhere. ><
After that, we met Nana at BK, where we parted again because she was going to Comics Connection for the closing down discounts. Gracey needed to go VivoCity, so me, JX and Muu went on the same MRT.
MUU LEFT HER WALLET ON THE MRT. I tried to go back to the mrt station where she alighted to find her and give her her wallet, but she had already disappeared. Muu, how did you ever get home...??
Where dreams were made; 5:47 PM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Edited it. Whoo!! Now my novel has a prologue, and I had touched the two thousand words mark! Go me!!
Now, for the prologue:
Prologue
In the Ancient Times, the earth just, suddenly and without warning, cease to function. Mother Nature tried, -and failed- to heal the wounds inflicted into the earth over time, and consequentially started what is now known as the Reverse Effect. Slowly, bit by bit, the earth started to die.
Over the thousands of chaotic years, a new breed of humans came to earth. The Angelicae, known for their wings and their magical powers, quickly rose to power in mankind. They took over the functions of Mother Nature, and allowed the earth to retain a semblance of what it had looked like before the Reverse Effect. The Angelicae formed a pact, to uphold the earth, and in return, become rulers of the rest of mankind.
However, some Angelicae disagree. They wanted to rule the world themselves, and broke free of the pact. Calling themselves the Satenne, they gathered their own forces, from mankind and other Angelicae, and tried to take over the world. The Angelicae tried to stop the Satenne, but they were already too powerful. What ensued was a horrific battle between the Angelicae and the Satenne. Many Angelicae died, and there were only a handful of them left when they finally subdued the Satenne.
The Angelicae resumed power, but what they didn't know was that the Satenne, after lying low for decades, are growing in power again. And this time, the imminent battle was going to be ten times worse then the previous, only heard of in folk-lore...
What do you guys think of it? (:
Rayne
Where dreams were made; 5:06 PM
A rush of wings...and thousands of snow-white feathers drifted down from the heavens above. Blood- fresh, red blood dotted the ground, and her horrified gaze flew to the winged man collapsing in a heap a few steps away from her. Stumbling, she ran towards him, her breath coming in short, sharp gasps, her own dove-grey wings trailing behind her.
"Ryan...!"
...And this marks the beginning of my Nanowrimo novel. Nanowrimo starts today until the end of November, so wish me luck, everybody!! I really hope to finish 50,000 words by the end of the month...
Now, I've got 642 words, but I need at least 1,667 words every day including weekends. This is stressful, I know, but really, really fun!!
Netball Carn today. I got to play many times, but always WD. ^^ Though we didn't win, but I had loads of fun. (and exercise) We did win the shooting competition, though, thanks to our wonderful shooters!!! They are just so pro..!!! (:
Okay, got to get back to Nanowrimo now. Will post maybe in December. We'll see!!
(Well, maybe not. But the posts would get shorter.)
Where dreams were made; 2:46 PM
