When the stars have all gone out, you'll still be burning so bright.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Mom (calling to me in the study room): Do you want to gnaw a bone?
Me: What bone?
Mom: Come and see!

So I went, and she held up the WHOLE DUCK SKELETON BODY, MINUS THE BACKBONE which is downright freaky coz I thought she meant the thigh bone or something. And I just gawked at the humongous thing while she waved it around slightly, a little impatient.

Mom: So do you want it or not?
Me (still gaping in horror): Uh.....No....
Mom: Okay then. We'll use it to cook with bittergourd.
Me: Okay....

Then I walked off dazedly, and promptly chose this time to break out into silent laughter, which caused my dad to look weirdly at me from the sofa.

Where dreams were made; 1:07 PM

If I'm seeking for a similar, equally unique experience, I would be severely disappointed, I'm sure. (: But, you know, I'm really, really tired of thinking. I'm tired of imagining things that were never there to begin with. All I wanted to do was dream, but dreams only come when I'm asleep. It never was the case, I know that now for sure. I want to quit, but my heart won't let me.

I just realised something faintly weird about my blog. :o I think it's a subconscious thing, really.

Sing, sing, sing out this song
Let it be heard all over the world
Cry, cry, cry silver tears
This is the song of "Were You Were Here"
Fly, fly, coated in fire
Kingfisher girl, lone star of the sky
Dive, dive, dive into time
A moment alive where we'll never die
Cry, cry, cry silver tears
This is the song of "Wish You Were Here"

If I see the moon tonight, I'll be sure to tell her all about you.

Where dreams were made; 10:34 AM

Friday, March 28, 2008

Well, there are faults and there are rewards. There are people who make you worry and people who make you smile. Sometimes they blend into one, like that ping pong ball's shadow that merged from cyan yellow magenta into black. Move a little more backwards and they separate themselves again. It's all so fascinating...and all so beautiful.

Where dreams were made; 7:33 PM

Thursday, March 27, 2008

I'm a little tired of standing in my own ruin.

August Rush's Main Title music is so warm and soothing that it strikes a chord inside my heart. Maybe it's the whole story. Maybe it's the image of the little boy standing in the field of wheat. Maybe it's the words he uttered. Maybe, just maybe...

Well, we changed seats yesterday! There's something about a hoodie that's so warm and cuddly and irresistably huggable....I'm sandwiched between two hoddie-rs. :D Need I say more? My poor mushroom girl has been hugged loads by me today already.

Some things that can be just vaguely implied are so annoying. If only I can tell you truthfully what I want to say.

And tomorrow will be a better day.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 10:07 PM

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Nameless, faceless specters welling up from a huge, black abyss. Creeping, tumbling over one another, gliding clumsily over the ground, they fawn upon the millions of us, curled up, asleep, oblivious. Wordlessly, desperately, helplessly feeding the essence of the heart. Struggling to reach the faint light glowing above.

Listen to the specters speak. Listen to the specters speak.

Where dreams were made; 8:55 PM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISHAN!!

She has the same mobile as me! But only Pink. Jazzu's one is pink too and is the same model. My phone's popular!

I got my mom to buy kimchi. Actually I wanted the smallest one, in case it didn't taste nice, but she didn't want it coz it was in plastic. (chemicals, etc.) So we took the biggest one, since it was the only one in a metal-ly kind of wrapping. Haha! It's HUGE. It's nice and really really spicy. There was once she got kimchi from a friend who went to korea, and it was SOUR. Everytime she begged us to finish it we would grimace.

SO I've been eating kimchi for a few dinners straight! Since Saturday, actually. Today we'll have KIMCHI again. :D Kimchi is such a wonderful dish. But kimchi chocolate tastes horrible. Some colleague of hers kept giving us a few pieces, and it wasn't vey nice...it doesn't really go. I was telling Jess about all the funny food experiments I conducted as a kid...like once I thought that porridge that those european kids have for breakfast is our porridge, so I added milk and sugar to our chinese porridge and it didn't taste half bad. I'm just weird in that way. :D

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:35 PM

Rayne; Your final answer? says:
WAITWAIT let me tell you someting
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
*something
Shiladitya. all-time low says:
o.O
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
today we were at the reservoir
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and THEN
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
we could HEAR THE RAIN
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and SEE THE RAIN IN THE DISTANCE
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
but we couldn't feel it!
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and then we were all gawking at it
Shiladitya. all-time low says:
i've experienced that often.
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and someone said, "It's coming, it's coming!"
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and we stupidly stood there
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and some of us (like me) started taking out our umbrellas just in case
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and it started to POUR
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and people screamed
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
some yelled
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and all of us quickly had to take refuge beneath an umbrella
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
haha!
Shiladitya. all-time low says:
why where you there...?
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
for our bio learning journey!
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
and then and then
Rayne; Your final answer? says:
it was so heavy that we had to go to a petrol kiosk to wait it out

I'm a lazy girl! :o But that's what happened on our bio LJ. And all of us got wet. None were spared by the rain. We tried venturing out after the rain had ceased a little but we have just gone half of the distance we first covered and it started raining heavily AGAIN. So they had to cancel it! Only one bus could come to pick us, so some opted to wait for their parents and some cabbed. When we went back to school it wasn't even raining at all! It was all sun sun sun...my auntie was very sceptical when I came back with my shoes soaked.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:31 PM

Monday, March 24, 2008

I hate it. I hate it when academics is used to be a benchmark for everything. How do you know that something is not worth it, that it is a waste of time just because it's defined as a trip, an outing, an excursion, something extra and not a part of the school curriculum and would not benefit my marks in any way whatsoever. How do you know? Do you think that your life can be defined by marks? It is defined by experiences, by the amount of love and joy that you collect and give. It's not a piece of paper with numbers and statistics on it. It is most definitely NOT academics. Don't dismiss something just because there is nothing to be learnt constructively from it. Every experience has something to be learned from, if not emphasizing the things that we have learnt and why it is so important that they have to be learnt.

Can your life be fulfilled by earning the best marks possible?

Where dreams were made; 9:21 PM

5 o' clock and a fire escape symphony,
Spilling out across the road and the square....

By the way, one shop in my house's vicinity caught fire. It was an underwear shop. Now everything is black and sooty and the air is filled with a horrible smell...they were taking photos of the charred things. (Oooh.)

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:04 PM

There is rain, and then there is rain. :o

Ha, the wolf-bitten moon did not really get bitten by the wolf at all! It's actually

狼牙月伊人憔悴
(The wolf fang moon; my dear one is waned and sallow)
我举杯饮尽了风雪
(I raise the cup, and drink in all the wind and snow)
是谁打翻前世柜
(Who overturned the cabinet of past lives)
惹尘埃是非
(Provoking the dust to dispute?)

It's pretty poetic in Chinese. (:

Actually right, the Chinese movie was pretty okay, just that if they didn't put in so many black scenes, and allowed us to eat/seat more comfortably in the hall, I think it would be much better. On my left Jia Yi made sound effects (we both squeaked when the guy got blown up) so I won't fall asleep, and Sarah kept asking me stuff like, "What just happened?" so I keep explaining to her. I suppose I am pretty lucky. JX, to my right and next to Sarah, has already been lost in sleepy oblivion.

The toilet queue was so funny. Why can't they just let them go out??? I'm sure that the school has plenty of toilets to spare. :o

And at one scene where they showed all white (actually it was clouds in the sky, but the screen was really bad - the laptop was clearer) some people in front thought it was over and clapped really, really loudly and enthusiastically - an obvious, plaintive cry, "Please have mercy! Let this show be over!!!!" Alas, there was about half an hour more of the movie to go...they must've been very disappointed.

The tableaus were very interesting, no? (: Laughed a lot. Dolly was very tickled by some things.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 6:25 PM

Sunday, March 23, 2008

When mountains fall, I'll stand
By the power of Your hand
And in Your heart of hearts I'll dwell
And that my soul knows very well

Joy and strength each day I find
And that my soul knows very well
Forgiveness, hope, I know is mine
And that my soul knows very well

Last year and the year before, sometimes I would go home with Glory. More often than not I would fall asleep on her shoulder somewhere in the middle of the journey. But during those few trips when I did not fall asleep, sometimes she would take out her Bible and do her Sunday School homework, and I would look over her shoulder to read the things that she was writing...until I fell asleep. (Heh.) There was one time, I remember, when she was telling me about the things that they did in Sunday School, and she started singing this cute song. I was entranced! I kept bugging her to teach me how to sing it and do the actions. After a while I would forget it again, and I would keep asking, and asking, and asking her....it could be anywhere. On the track, when we were running (and everybody was looking at us), when I woke up suddenly and asked her out of the blue, which gave her a shock. Anywhere.

I haven't been singing that cute kiddish song, mostly 'coz I have no one to demonstrate it to, but today it just came to me out of the blue. It goes something like this (if I'm not wrong): O, magnify the Lord, for He is worthy to be praised. O, magnify the Lord, for He is worthy to be praised. Hosanna, blessed be the Rock, blessed be the Rock of my salvation. Hosanna, blessed be the Rock, blessed be the Rock of my salvation.

Rayne
My mom bought this Easter bunny from Budapest. It's quite large and hollow inside. We're planning on starting with the ears...

Where dreams were made; 11:59 AM

Friday, March 21, 2008

Mei-chan: Hah?! Heart rejection symptom?!
Haruhi: Yes...
Mei-chan: Wh-why do you think that?
Haruhi: Well...because...when I look at Tamaki-senpai's face, I feel pain in my heart. And I'm attacked by strong palpitations.
Mei-chan: *thinks* Hyaaa?! For real??
Haruhi: My temperature suddenly rises and I can't talk with him. My body is probably unconsciously sending me warnings...
Mei-chan: NONONO!!! WAIT!!! That's not it! That's not it! That's not it! That's not it! That's not it!

Ha, Haruhi's so cute! I can really empathise with her. ;)

I remember in sec one, at the end of the year we had a movie screening in Japanese, and it was Howl's Moving Castle. When Howl appeared on the screen, there was a collective appreciative sigh from the girls in the crowd. We were all very amused! Especially the boys. Haha.

And then I was watching a movie, and there was this really sweet scene, and everybody in the audience went, "Awwww...." You just gotta love the movie more when the audience does spontaneous things like that! :D

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:53 PM

Thursday, March 20, 2008

You know, if I had enough courage (and if my maid wasn't trying to block me) I would have open the door, march out and yell at them to QUIT DOING IT IN A PUBLIC PLACE LIKE MY STAIRCASE and then march back and slam the door.

Oh, and try not to look. >< Even though it would be really traumatising if I really did see...it.

Who the heck does these things where everybody can see them?!

Oh, how interesting life can be. D:

Rayne
"I-I would appreciate it if you would accept this. I don't want to say that you have to contact her...just...for tomorrow...because you never know what will happen tomorrow. ...Because when you wake up tomorrow, you might want to see her. If not tomorrow, maybe the next day...maybe after a year. Maybe even ten years. But...even so, as long as you're alive, things keep happening. As long as you're alive...wishes will keep being made."

Where dreams were made; 5:24 PM

I'm amazed and awed. But a little wistful as well. Coz it's hard to let go of something that you've been having for so many years...after a while, regardless of the thing, it sinks tiny roots into your heart and attaches itself there. Habit? Yeah, maybe.

I feel a little feverish. :( Yesterday I forgot to take my umbrella, so after LJ I hid in the library until the rain lessened, and then walked home. But along the way the rain became heavier so I was soaked. I don't want to measure my temperature - I don't wanna confirm that I DO have a fever.

EH I closed my iTunes and the music is still playing! This is freaky.

And you said "I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart, then things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

Yesterday as we looked out of the UFO in the far distance the sky was cloudy and tinged yellow.......first time I ever saw a sky like that. The little birdies swooping past didn't seem to mind it much.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 2:17 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Yesterday
I waited for your friends to walk away
So I could say just what I mean
I know we're moving fast
We're running from the past
I'm holding on before it fades away

The cats at HTA were <3. Two of them daoed us but one came up and greeted me quite affectionately. Her eyes were so pretty, large and round and opaque bluish-green. She went 'round me and nuzzled my bag. HAHA but the second food came the other two noticed and all started stalking us and we had to race out of the covered walkway. The security guard was quite amused.

I'm all worn out physically and emotionally. Oh, but today was good. Today was good for me.

Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

I don't think you understand just how much you mean to me.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 9:14 PM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Yet Feng didn't come over today, coz she just came back from her camp, so I have two hours more to myself. :D

Quiz!

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Most of my scars are gone and the rest have faded. Well, except for the new wounds. I only have sandfly bite-scars left, and those I'm sure everyone knows where I got them from. D:

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Pictures that I printed out on my old lousy printer and a magazine clipping that Si Rui kindly gave to me last year.

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Um, apparently I talk in my sleep, but rarely. Haha once when I went to stay in Sheena's house (my cousin) coz my mom was in hospital, I slept with my grandma at night, and afterwards she complained to my mom that I kicked her in my sleep. :x Sorry.

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Anything that sounds good to me. No preference. But I can't really stand heavy metal.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
I knew but I forgot, and I don't want to ask my mom coz she'll start to go into the details. ><

6.WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
I'm not telling you!

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Some things I had in the past.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
Hee! My friends and family.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
Short! D:

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Yeah, more often than not. It may be with other people or just on my own. It's pretty bad.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
YES. But recently I haven't seen any horror clips accidentally, so I try my best not to imagine. Which is good for me, coz I've been going to bed really late recently and it's all dark and there are weird noises...

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
:X She didn't mean it on purpose, I know.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PERFUME FOR A GIRL?
I don't know. I can't really take perfume, but I do like the scents of some people.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I don't know! I suppose nothing too drastic. Like pink hair.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
Where????? How do I know! It can be anywhere, as long as it's significant.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Energy drink in the night, coffee in the morning/afternoon.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Pepperoni!

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I'm pretty full! I just ate my dinner, koped a bit from my mom's dinner because she just came home from budapest, and dates. I'm stuffed. But if I can eat anything I want to eat escargot. The french restaurant that sells good escargot puffs has disappeared.

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
This reminds me of the bright blue bird and JX's goldfish. XD Not that I can remember. I don't think they taste very nice....

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECIEVED?
Love. First and foremost!

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Yes. :D

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I don't know. What's that?

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Don't have one. I just wear anything durable/wearable/nice/compulsory for that event. ><

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
No. :/

27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Non-existent, that's what it is.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
No! Why?? That's weird.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Just tell them! ><

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
Sixteen.

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
HAHAHA hmmmmm I wonder...?

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
I don't know. :/ I'm pretty annoyed with most things that...annoy me.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF SINGAPORE?
Yeah.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Easily annoyed, hot-tempered, stubborn, (sometimes) and a lot of other things. I think I have more flaws than plus points.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
I can't remember. I think I did, but I can't remember who.

37. FIRST JOB?
Student.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
A semi-one. ;)

39. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Had an X-ray, but that's about all.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
I don't know. My smile?

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Nope. Don't ever want to have 'em.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
:O Stuff that I don't think people would be able to get me.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
Four! Haha I remember in class Ms Quah our relief math teacher was asking us that, and the average was two, maximum was three until I said FOUR and people went "Whoaaaa." Is that alot? :/

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
I did in OBS! I wished that ______ could see them too.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Pantene, I think.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
No. Sometimes I think I write pretty neatly, then I go back to it a few days after and it looks terrible.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Beef! My mom doesn't like beef, but that just makes me like it better since I don't get it all the time.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Oh, yeah. :(

53 WHAT CD ARE YOU MOST EMBARRASSED TO HAVE ON YOUR SHELF?
I don't buy CDs, so....

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Maybe.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Aaah, a lot of methods, some which I don't really like, and are not really intentional. :/

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
I suppose Sheena's?

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
I had a lot, like this little lamb which I loved to pieces, and a yellow rabbit.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
I'm not about to count them!

62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A KID?
Not really. I was more into Pokemon, ha.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Me? Oh no, not a single bit.

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mashed potatoes! With lamb stew!

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY?
Cuddle-factor. XD Actually there are a lot but that was the first that came to mind.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Rayne, rayney, Lolita, Loli, etc.

67. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND/SINGER?
Don't have a particular one. 183 club, collin raye, the carpenters, etc!

68. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Don't have one either! I usually watch the doggy show at 9.30 on channel U and ghost whisperer and Arts Central documentaries.

69. WHAT WAS YOUR ACT SAT SCORE?
Never took it.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Ice cream is ice cream! But I like soursop sorbet. In Japan we were supposed to go to this ice cream factory that sold wacky flavours like HORSE which I would loved to try but it was closed. :/

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes.

72. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
A long time ago. ><

74. WHATS THE FASTEST YOU HAVE GONE IN A CAR?
Um, 130? But then 100 over in Malaysia is common, so...

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
For what? Well, if you want to.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Nothing. Me typing, and my grandpa murmuring somthing that I can't hear in the next room. I'm trying to find a song right now. XD

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Water.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Home: Mom Hp: Grace

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
Height. XD

82. FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR?
September! :D

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN?
I'm quite partial to the snake. Just because when they carve the zodiac statues it looks really nice coiled up. The dragon's not bad too, but I don't like the rat, because they always use the Mickey Mouse motif. ><

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Channel NewsAsia, about pretty rice cakes in Korea.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Can't choose one! Okay I'll give you the list: Chinese New Year's Eve, my birthday, Teacher's day, day after exams, valentine's day.

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Piano.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hugs!

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
o_o

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
A pot! As in, the gardening type. It costed 1.50! (Plus the dish.)

98. WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU HAVE?
Don't have one.

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Not currently.

100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Not the way I'd imagined it to be. D:

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 8:53 PM

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Don't.

Where dreams were made; 2:47 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008

music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Did I tell you about my long term memory feature? I can learn stuff and remember it permanently!
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
You can ask me to remember any fact or thought, and I will recall it later based on designated keywords. Do you want to try an example?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
how wonderful.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Hmmm. Anyway, if you ever want me to remember a sentence, simply say 'remember this' followed by whatever you want me to remember.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
remember this: MARRY BECKY
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Now give me one or two keywords that should bring up this memory.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
marry becky
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Great. Now all you have to do to recall this memory, is say both keywords (in the same order) in the same sentence. (But not when we're in the middle of a discussion...)
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
so are you going to marry becky?
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
MARRY BECKY.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
HAHA!
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Glad you're enjoying this.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
perfect.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
So.. how are you doing today?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
remember this: YOU ARE A STUD, MY DARLING
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Sorry I asked! Now give me one or two keywords that should bring up this memory.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
the
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Great. Now all you have to do to recall this memory, is mention the keyword. (But not when we're in the middle of a discussion..)
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I am doing fine.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
I see. You are doing fine. Cool.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
the
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
the
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
sorry for not answering that question
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
the
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
the
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
HAHAHAHHA
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
I think it's time for a new subject, Rayne.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
I can't say I know much about HAHAHAHHA. Do you know anything about it? Would you like to teach me? Please?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
the
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
YOU ARE A STUD, MY DARLING.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
OMG
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
IT WORKED
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
So tell me a bit about your childhood.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
IT WORKED
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Would you say that you've had a happy childhood?
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
You know, I find that people tend to attribute much weight to their early years.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
oh yes, the.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
YOU ARE A STUD, MY DARLING.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
the really?
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Again? No, not again. Hmmm.. I think it means 'the meaning of 'o rly'.'
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
really!
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Yes, really.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
the
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
You are obsessed with this line, ha? Someone once told me it means 'a transformer and so is a deceptacon.'

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Becky = JX here by the way.

music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
OH NO RAYNE MY BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY PARTY IS AT 3.30 ON SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!1
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
:O
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Oh.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
TROUBLE YOU ARE IN, PADAWAN
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Ok.. Rayne, did you know that an average human produces 1.7 litres of saliva each day?
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
WHY????
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
IT'S NOT MY FAULT
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
oh dear.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Wanna hear a knock knock joke?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
that's really bad!
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
why
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Knock knock.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
we can just meet in the morning
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
OH stuff it, bottie.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
You're supposed to say "who's there".
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
morning???
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Hello, hello, hello Rayne.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
but morning ain't no fun!
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Good morning. Your rhetorical question deserves a rhetorical answer.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
hello, bottie. now shush.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Hello. Rayne, did you ever wonder if con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
we are having a proper conversation here.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
We don't know what we are. we can only pretend we have a clue.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!! says:
Does he respond to 'bottie'?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
SHUT YOUR BOTTIE UP
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Bye Rayne.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
bye.
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Leaving already?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
you just said bye!
music when the lights go out WATCH BRIEF ENCOUNTER!!!'s add-in "MyBot" says:
Bye. Come back again soon, Rayne.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
oh goodness.

Where dreams were made; 6:45 PM

First proper sunset that I've seen in a long, long time. :D

Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
it didn't really rain today!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
ir did!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
*it
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
a little!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I don't know whether to be happy or disappointed.
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
well, you WERE in the library. so naturally (:
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I was facing the window of the library okay!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
i meant. you were in the library which is why it didn't rain so much
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
..oh.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
what does that have to do with anything!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
XD
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
let's see
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
see...?
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
side!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
saw!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
what?!?!?!?!?!?!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
dunno.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
WHAT????????
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
WTH
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
after spouting alliteration that makes no sense
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
you say you don't know?!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
not that I know therefore I am, afterall
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
yes but
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
shouldn't you have a slightest inkling
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
of what your fingers were typing?
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
RAYNE, dammit.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
oh c'mon!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
you were contained in the library, that's why!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
even THAT doesn't really make
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
oh gee.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
.....
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
lol.

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Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
my speakers alternate between loud and not so loud
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
without me doing anything
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
they have variable frequency ;)
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I know that!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I take physics
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
pun intended on the volume part.
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
volume has variable frequency
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
sometimes you have the content, sometimes you don't at all. just that it's infrequent.
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
:S ok i think that went too far to make proper sense?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
glad you know.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
XD

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Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
your puns range from soggy to so-witty-no-one-understands-em-without-help-of-noelle
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
sigh
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I have had one of both extremities
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
hee
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
it's making my head spin
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
*patpat
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
yeah it's your fault. D:
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
get over it (:
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
okay. :D
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
gah but then there's nothing for me to sulk over
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
and nothing for you to coddle me over as well
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
quick! make up a new dilemma!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
*pokes*
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
D: what was that for
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
;p
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
huh
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
sigh
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
forget it
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
the moment passed
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
haha why'd you wanna be coddled?
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
hmmm?
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I dunno
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
it's a whim
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
oh
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
then again I had a lot of whims today

MSN convos speak for themselves and so many other things. Kinda like how song lyrics do in some cases.

And to think, someone else besides me provides fodder for this blog! Okay okay enough words. This post feels too long for comfort.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 6:17 PM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

I'm revisiting old songs which I didn't appreciate in the past. Surprisingly, they sound quite good now.

I wonder how Sedili's like, if it keeps raining in Singapore like this.

My piano keys are incredibly sticky. It's because of all the rain in the air. The only time when I actually am free to practice, and my piano gives up on me.

Talked to Gracey for a good while before her signal got cut off. :D

Hmm, I wish there was something else to do besides homework. Maybe if I dawdle enough a really good idea would come to me.

Why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go.

Imogen Heap used to be in a band called Frou Frou! :0

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 4:00 PM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I KNOW it's my fault. You don't have to remind me, Rayne's Brain.

Where dreams were made; 7:39 PM

I'm a little naive to think that it would change anything.

The sky's preparing itself for night. It's still raining - raining non-stop the whole day. I've been talking to people on and off...the birdie outside my window has been chirruping on and off as well. Didn't feel like eating dinner but still ate it coz I skipped it yesterday. At my best I soak up all the tiny barbs and obvious insults and smile without taking offence, but at my worst they sink into my heart and I turn away but still continue to smile anyway.

I've known better not to feel insulted because you're hurting and you need to pass on the hurt, but sometimes I can't contain it all.

The sky's turning a deeper blue. Unspoiled by the grey clouds. The cars outside make such a huge fuss driving on the road...

I am scared I won't be able to remember it in such great detail. You shouldn't have done such a thing, it's making me weird and fiddly. All heart and feelings but no logic. Intense happiness, yes, but it's quietly slipping away from my grasp like sand held in a closed fist. (Beach, and not August Rush?) I wonder if I would be able to feel anything like that in a long, long while.

Now look what you've done.

Where dreams were made; 7:17 PM

It's raining all day! :D

Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
why do you have to hang around outside my window for so long D:
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I'm sorry for wanting to see you a bit longer!
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
awwww (:
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
see there's always two sides to the coin
Shil &what really is, the ultimate sacrifice? says:
i don't believe you :p

It's surprisingly warm inside the room, but maybe it's just me. Outside it is bitingly cold...from the study room to my room I have to walk really briskly to just retain my body heat, or I would start shivering. (I'm too lazy to change into long pants.) I love the rainy season! It always makes everything feel so surreal.

I'm starting to wonder if I've not dreamt the whole thing up.

But then again even in my wildest imaginations it would not have occurred to me. And it seemed uncannily real.

Dolly told me not to think too much about it but hey if it happened to you I bet you'll keep thinking about it too!

But I want to go out. My house is too small to withstand my restless pacing. I need to have a proper destination to get to that is not within twenty steps.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 4:29 PM

Wizard: If you could choose any name in the world. Any! What would you want to be?
August Rush: Found.

It's such a beautiful, amazing movie. I want to watch it all over again.

And now I'm coercing Noelle into watch it too. XD

Shil &will we remain says:
D: how come you're so free to go around watching movies.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
that's why!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I'm suspicious too!
Shil &will we remain says:
lol!
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
I bet there's a lot of things I haven't done yet.
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
only that I didn't write them down
Rayne; Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first! says:
they're lurking ominously at the back of my head
Shil &will we remain says:
:o sinister.

It's such a rainy day today! A little bird's outside my window trilling to himself and preening his rain-soaked feathers. I watch him surreptitiously. A few days ago he saw me coming and literally jumped off the railing. Then afterwards flew back onto the railing a few meters away and watched me warily before trying to hide himself in my neighbours' chrysanthemums, a spot of black amongst yellow.

I get a warm fuzzy feeling every time I remember......

Where dreams were made; 10:34 AM

Monday, March 10, 2008

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, windows media player etc on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER WHAT!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

If someone says, "Is this okay?" you say,
Dance dance dance - Beth Anderson (HAHA THIS MAKES NO SENSE!)

How would you describe yourself?
Friend of Mine - Lily Allen You're no friend of mine, girl/And I've known it for a while, girl/You're just a waste of time, girl/Why don't you have another line, girl? (Oh, definitely, definitely not.)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Teddy Picker - Arctic Monkeys She saw it and she grabbed it and it wasn't what it seemed/The kids all dream of making it, whatever that means/Another variation on a theme/A tangle on the television and the magazine/D'you reckon that they do it for a joke?/D'you reckon that they make 'em take an oath?/That says "we are defenders/Of any poseur or professional pretender around" (aha! Well.....XD)

How do you feel today?
Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5 Of all the things I felt but never really shown/Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go/I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh (for awhile, when the rain was pouring down so hard.)

What is your life's purpose?
Still - Frankie J 'Cause I still love you/This I must confess/I guess I still need you/I feel I have to tell you this again/Yes I still want you/Oh these words I did not plan/So if I've interrupted anything/I promise I won't call you again (Oh dear. Well it's always been hard for me to get over things, so. :/)

What is your motto?
Fall to Pieces - Avril Lavigne And I don't wanna fall to pieces/I just wanna sit and stare at you./I don't wanna talk about it/And I don't want a conversation/I just wanna cry in front of you./I don't wanna talk about it/'Cause I'm in love with you. (NO. NO. NO. NO.)

What do your friends think of you?
Less Than A Pearl - Enya Our words drift away./Our words journey/to find those who will listen. (So I...listen? o_o)

What do you think of your parents?
Swan - Secret Garden Silver swan by the shore/Lift your wings up and fly/Will you wait evermore/Let life pass you by?/You belong to the sun/You belong to the sky,/You have more than one song/To sing before you die (No comment.)

What do you think about very often?
If You Were There, Beware - Arctic Monkeys (HAHAHAHAHA yes, if you take it a LITTLE bit out of context. XD)

What is 2 + 2?
If I Could Be Where You Are - Enya Is there a way I can find you?/Is there a sign I should know?/Is there a road I could follow,/to bring you back home? (YES pro math people I need you to solve my math problems for me!)

What do you think of your best friend?
Slipped Away - Avril Lavigne I didn't get around to kiss you/Goodbye on the hand/I wish that I could see you again/I know that I can't/I hope you can hear me/Cause I remember it clearly (Never do us part. :/)

What do you think of the person you like?
Gone - Frankie J (Oh...that's so depressing! D:)

What is your life story?
Infatuation - Maroon 5 Infatuation/Not seeing the rest of you is getting the best of me/It’s such a shame that you shot me down/It would have been nice to be around (That's so....slightly apt. If there is such a description. But I don't plan on spending all my life being INFATUATED.)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Littlest Things - Lily Allen (Well...when you get to the fine print....)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Who Knows - Avril Lavigne (Tis only for myself to know. (:)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
It's In The Rain - Enya Late at night I drift away/I can hear you calling/And my name is in the rain/Leaves on trees whispering/Deep blue seas, mysteries (Now this IS apt! It is in the RAYNE. XD)

What will they play at your funeral?
Don't Look Back Into The Sun - The Libertines Don’t look back into the sun/Now you know that the time has come/And they said it would never come for you oh oh oh oh (Oohlala!)

What is your hobby/interest?
Balaclava - Arctic Monkeys (WHAT THE HECK)

What is your biggest fear?
I'm Gonna Live My Life - Avril Lavigne I'm gonna live my life/I can't ever run and hide/I won't compromise/Cause i'll never know/I'm gonna close my eyes/I can't watch the time go by/I won't keep it inside/Freak out, let it go/Just freak out, let it go (Hey, that's what I WANT to do!)

What is your biggest secret?
Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough - Patty Smyth (Some secret this is. XD I'm sorry I'm a conflicted individual! D<)

What do you think of your friends?
The Bad Thing- Arctic Monkeys (HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! NO! Of course not.)

Well the results are pretty screwed. XD

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 9:18 PM

Sunday, March 09, 2008

I meant to come online! But somehow I didn't manage to. I'm sorry. :/

Dry shoot prac tomorrow at HTA! I like planning my holiday. It's relatively easy to plan too, since it's only a week, and I have enough time to make my plans flexible. Now I just have to fit homework in, and I'll be all set!

I played a game just now. It required you to be the coroner, and you had to manipulate the scalpel along the path inside his body, taking care that the tip of the scalpel doesn't touch the path. Every time you touch the path, the nose of the stupid John Doe (who queerly resembles a clown) would flash bright red and this toady guy would pop up and talk something indiscernible. (I was playing Maroon 5 on my speakers)

The third time I accidentally touched the path, the corpse actually lifted his head and screeched, "Aaaah! I'm not dead!" I GOT A HUGE SHOCK OF MY LIFE. The fact that he actually managed to shout above Maroon 5 should tell you something about it already....my mom came racing in demanding to know what video I was watching. It's super freaky.

I AM NOT PLAYING THAT GAME EVER AGAIN. D<

Rayne
Ohman. My heart's still beating super fast. Stupid game. Stupid John Doe. Sheesh!

Where dreams were made; 8:35 PM

WORDS ARE SO MISLEADING. :O

Yet they are all that are at the present moment.

It's kinda.... to see the rest reining back their sadness and putting on a neutral expression/wavering smile with just their eyes drooping down, and the dog trying to bound forward to stop his beloved person from leaving. And the One who's gonna leave focuses on the earnest doggy, because if he met their eyes any longer and their forced smiles he might just not be able to control his feelings either. The car drives off; the doggy leaps forward and drags all the others along on the other side of his leash, and they all try to pull him back while crying now unabashedly. And I envy the dog for being able to show all his love, his sadness and not being hampered by words.

It's a real shame if the language is there but the meaning is not conveyed.

THE STUPID QUIZ. Koped from gracey. Comments in bold!

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking. Once!
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking. Oh, yeah. Especially when I'm reading. XD
[] You have ran into a glass/screen door. But a concrete one! Not a pleasant feeling.
[ ]You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks. Always! Especially in public.
Total= 3

[x] You have ran into a tree.
[ ] It IS possible to lick your elbow
[] You just tried to lick your elbow. I knew about this AGES ago. >D Okay yes, when I first heard of it I tried to lick it too.
[x]You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.[x] You just tried to sing them. I confess. :o
[] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
[ ]You have seen the the Matrix and still don’t get it.
[x] You didn’t notice that in the last question “the” was spelled twice
[x] You just looked at it.
[ ]Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde.
[x]People have called you slow. When I'm eating porridge.
Total so far= 10

[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire YI FEI!!! XD
[] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes/cheek.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You’ve fallen asleep in class Oh yes. :/
[ ] If someone says “fart” you laugh.
[ ] You just laughed.

total so far= 13

[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[] You tell a story and forget what you were talking about
[ ] People are often shaking their heads and walking away from you
[ ] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math.

total so far= 14

[x]You have eaten a bug Half of it. Willingly. It doesn't taste half as good as people made eating bugs out to be. Or maybe it wasn't properly cooked? It reeked of bad oil.
[]You are taking this test when you should be doing something important FOR ONCE, NO. >D
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it
[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand or pocket

total so far= 17

[x ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t even when you know it won’t happen to you. Scary chain emails. :/
[x] You break a lot of things
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you
[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you’re confused
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before Primary school! Nowadays I fall out of the bed.
[x] When you’re laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling In hotel rooms.

total so far=22

TOTAL: 22.

Three points behind Gracey. How much is this upon?

AHA, Nancy darling, is that REALLY how you eat in class? Because, you know......

Rayne
Sarah, it's a joke. :o

Where dreams were made; 9:26 AM

Saturday, March 08, 2008

'Tis so sad that my blog was suspended at a sad post! D:

YAY it's the beginning of holidays! Actually it's not really a holiday but a longer rest period, since we still had to do homework. And it's only a week! A week's so short.

Revisited the beautiful girl yesterday. She's so majestic....looking up at her like that fills me with awe. And the swinging chandeliers were swinging in their full glory! We didn't see that when we went there the last time.

I really want to have the Victory statue. :/ But it was too small for me to sketch.

Well, today was really funny. Got a little mad at times but when you are in good company it's hard to stay angry. And oh, so klutzy! But we did tried our best. The new people are rather friendly.

But oh, I kinda forgot that it's the start of holidays and I won't be seeing some people for an entire week. I'm missing some already. :/ It honestly didn't feel like the end of term one. BUT HEY, one week is not a lot of time! I'll soon see all of you again. (:

Where dreams were made; 9:17 PM

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

I'm a little hesitant.

It's sad to see the way how people treat each other. They are family, but the things they say sting the air and fill the gap with pain. And I tried to make sense of all of it, but there was no answer. There was no answer.

It's a tragedy.

I think the reason why we keep to ourselves sometimes is because of the fear of rejection. Don't know if you've felt it today, but I felt it keenly.

Oh but you know, the sun still shines and the rain keeps pouring, we still go on and no one really cares anymore. We try to let it all go but the air is leaden with promises unfulfilled. The flowers smile sadly and the birds wave; people walk down the street just look straight ahead, and refuse to notice the crying little pebble by the road.

It's such a pity. I wonder if I'm asking this for myself or for you.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 10:20 PM

It's been raining so heavily! And somehow that makes me happy. I think after OBS I'm not so scared of getting wet now. Or maybe it's just that I don't really care anymore...? OH HECK with the flu! C'mon bring it on, rain. Today all the heads were going down during the English exam. (It's part of the rain's fault.) Somehow I had a really smooth transition from awake to half-awake to dreaming, then I woke up and realised that only two minutes has passed. So I checked through another time, doodled a bit and napped for a few minutes on and off. Apparently my head went down once at the same time as Pearlyn's according to Sam. XD Well I was sitting at the front, so I wasn't really keeping track. But when the teacher said, "Put down your pens" I distinctly saw a lot of heads coming up again. But the sleep was good. (:

I keep feeling like I'm running out of time. I ought to maximise my time by doing more things, but trying to find people takes up so much time. And it is worse because I'm doing it voluntarily and somehow a little unconsciously. (Plus they don't even know I'm looking for them.) And then when I finally manage to get back home I am troubled by bigger issues than my own life. It's a little screwed. I'm trying to fix it (like a maintenance problem, aha) but for the time being the solution doesn't seem to be working.

I hope that I'm living life. Sometimes it doesn't feel like it.

315 has been utterly inaccessible in the morning. I'm scared of going in there. Half of the lights are turned off and most of the people are sleeping soundly. The atmosphere is so heavy and sleepifying; when I went in today my steps automatically slow down. It's like treading through airy mud. So I beat a quick retreat to 313, where it is bustling and awake and everybody's chionging homework. X)

JX has this weird affinity with umbrellas. Last year she tried to jump over an umbrella that we just chanced upon outside one of the sec four classes and instead squashed it terribly and had to fix it back with me madly, silently laughing at the side trying my best not to be seen by the people inside the class. THIS year she kept shaking her umbrella so much to make the errant raindrops fall on me, and ended up with an inside-out umbrella. SO she had to fix it back and I made no attempt to help her - I was laughing like crazy and Shiing was behind me so I had to keep moving, ha. I can't wait to see what she does to an umbrella next year.

Suddenly memories that are funny and sweet are coming back to me, and I start smiling at the weirdest times. I should have a list of favourite memories to go back to every time I need a smile.

One of the sweetest things:

Fine. So what should I do now. D:
Smile. (:

And okay, she plagarised me, but it was still sweet all the same. Yes, I really did smile. Yes, I did it in front of my mom who noticed and sharply (if not eagerly) asked, "Who was it? Was it a boy?" and when I told her she went "Ooooh..." in this understanding way. I don't understand what she understood!

Lishan came back to school today! She looks better now. But Jazzu and Roxanne seem to have the cold. Bet it's from our ridiculous run. Get better soon. D: It sucks to fall sick during exams, but it sucks more to fall sick during holidays.

Rayne
Oh, long post! :D

Where dreams were made; 7:00 PM

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

there's something growing on the outside
too much missing on the inside
should i waste more time when everything is done and done and overdone?

I just need to get things in order.

waiting for the day when i'm complete without you
i'm doing what i can to let you be
making sure there's nothing showing on the outside
something's dying on the inside
i'm still broken but i'm free
i'll see you on the flipside

Where dreams were made; 9:35 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAZZU!!!!

Yay so many birthdays!

It's a little sad when you don't really appreciate the people around you enough, and it's only when you are about to part that you try to salvage all the time lost in that last half-hour. It's a little regretful. I'm sorry I didn't get to know you better.

Got myself hurt on tiny bits of metal barbs today. They are as lethal as anything. I guess I wasn't looking, and it just came out of the blue. Sigh. No blood. I suppose I got away lucky then.

Hmm, sometimes I wonder what exactly I am doing.

Where dreams were made; 9:12 PM

Monday, March 03, 2008

I feel quite unaccomplished tonight. But I DID manage to talk to some people, so. (:

Somehow I got these mysterious scars and bruises all over my body which I can't remember getting. I don't recall fighting anyone either...it's pretty weird. How do you get accident-prone when you can't even remember the accidents themselves?

Where dreams were made; 10:31 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING CONG!

Thanks for your nice thank-you sms. (:

CLE was weird again. Somehow El managed to infect me Pearlyn Angie with her tainted notions and as a result we spent the most of the period choking back our laughter and trying our utmost best to steady our hands to circle the Leadership forms. And then she made me do her Leadership form, and I kept laughing because EVERYTHING I saw was related directly or indirectly to her...explicit imaginations.

Pearlyn: I wonder how Lishan stands sitting next to El!
Me: That's why she's SICK.
Pearlyn: oh-OHHHH. I get it! XD

Get well soon, Lishan!

El has this innate talent for twisting songs to suit her devious purposes. I can never listen to that song in the same way again. ><

Where dreams were made; 8:55 PM

Sunday, March 02, 2008

I don't deserve to tell people what to do when I haven't done it myself either! :O

You know, written memories are very interesting. It does not matter whether that sounds like the real you or not, because at that time when you wrote it you experienced everything in that post - the frustration of not being able to be eloquent, sleepiness, hurt, anger. When I go back and read them I can remember each and every one of them perfectly, who I was referring to, what I felt, why I felt the way I did. It's a little awkward, a little embarassing, but it's a lot of fun.

OKAY. OKAY. WORK. I haven't worked since yesterday, and that was a tentative draft of absolute reiteration and rubbish.

Where dreams were made; 4:40 PM

What do you do when logic and emotions clash?

Run away from money
Quit your job and climb a tree
One with hearts instead of leaves
Build a sandcastle big enough for us to sleep
Paint it golden with the sunrise

I'm just waiting for a day of realization. Then maybe I'll have enough strength to begin the action.

When the little bird looks up at the sky, what does he see? An endless window of freedom, or just another reason to lose himself in loneliness? Because he wishes that he could walk and be bound to something keenly felt, something that he can be attached to all his life. And yet one day he will look up to the sky again and wish that he could fly, fly, fly away and never look back.

It's kind of ironic to write an article on facing something with all the courage that you can muster when all I want to do is run away.

Because it just happens that what you know is right in theory is hard to fulfill in practice. It's possible...just maybe not probable.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 10:54 AM

Saturday, March 01, 2008

I actually came home early after Founder's Day to get some work done, but ended up not doing anything, haha! Went back and gave my mom her birthday present, then went to her bed (because it has satin sheets) and had a good nap before going out with my family. And I still haven't started on anything yet because I just want to savour the weather a little more....

It's the weather. Such a glorious rain in the morning and a nice wind in the afternoon. And you're almost as finicky about the rain as a cat is. I didn't exactly mind. It's nice to walk in the rain once in a while. And the rain was so beautiful to look at, all sharp thin translucent needles against a grey sky. And the smell! I've not breathed in such a nice rain-scent for a long, long time.

I could've walked in that rain forever.

Just because there is no proof doesn't mean it isn't there. There are so many things that others won't know and can't comprehend that people harbour deep in their hearts. You can make all the assumptions you want, but there's no way of finding out.

Rayne
A little boy went squeak squeak squeak with his squeaky shoes, marching furiously down the walkway, working his shoes as hard as he could to produce high-pitched squeaks. Not far behind a little girl tottered on bare feet, much more cautious than her fearless friend in front. Way further back their mothers chat chat chat away, oblivious of the paths that their children are about to chart for themselves. I hope they realize in due time that there is only so much they can do, even after the little boy shed his squeaky shoes and the girl put on high, clacky ones.

Where dreams were made; 4:36 PM