When the stars have all gone out, you'll still be burning so bright.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

It was quite bad. In the present circumstances, it was really, really bad. Worse than math. I chewed myself out more than I did for math, and that was after I knew the results. Maybe the paper was hard, maybe people couldn't finish it, but because it was me doing my thing, somehow, it just boils down to my ability. Somehow, it all began with me, and it ended there, today.

But the afternoon was good. Being in the sun girl's presence has made me feel...warmed. Because she, being her, was super blur, ultimately lovable and always herself. She very self-righteously led me to a place and after a while said, "Wait, why are we here?" XD Not once, but many, many times. Haha! The sun girl is always so exceptional. So outstanding, and so unique.

Ooooh, but she made me laugh so hard, my face literally hurts now. D: She made me laugh the whole way. When I was not laughing I was smiling. And she tells me not to laugh! How can I not laugh, huh, when you blunder around like that as though you knew where you were going? When you thought that the toilets were the lift lobby and that Kino was in the Taka departmental mall? (It just just above your head.)

You are really very, very...............amazing. Amazing. I mean it. You are really, really, really so cute and lovable. X)

Rayne
...but thank you. (:

Where dreams were made; 9:01 PM

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Sigh.

Shall be the last sound I make before entering the exam room.

Honestly, everything I do recently worries me a lot.

Where dreams were made; 7:06 PM

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Step, step right over the line
And onto borrowed time
When it's life, not waiting to die
Waiting to divide to divide

So tell me what's new.

Oh gosh, I swear that yesterday was Hate Students Day. Or maybe just Hate R&T Day. Everywhere we went we were uprooted or kicked out. We kept deviating from the library to the entertainment center, back to the library, back to the center, etc etc. Couldn't find anywhere to study, not even a private corner to ourselves in the library, or a table at Macs. That was how bad it was.

And when we went to the fourth floor, they had a freaking band going on. A band! During Exam Period! Blasting out rock music! THE AUDACITY OF THEM. D< Just because it is a Live Earth Band. What happened to a conducive environment for studying, huh?? I can forgive the booths selling souvenirs and providing nail art even though it stank the place up with nail polish remover, but the band was just simply not to be there.

Thank goodness we retreated to the children's section before we realised our circumstances, because when the security guard came and told us to move because we're blocking the way and suggested that we go to the fourth floor I would most likely shoot something that I shouldn't be shooting. Mm.

So in the end we stood at the Cafe staring reproachfully at the people dawdling over their coffee and finally, finally a table emptied because they ran out of words and coffee and we sat down fast. And started work. Which didn't last for very long.

Got to pull myself together. Because if I think too much, I find there's just a hole. Somehow that line always sticks to me, because it's just so true.

Rayne
But you say you're getting tired
You're tired and so am I
When you follow from behind

Where dreams were made; 9:13 PM

Friday, April 25, 2008

HA. Forgot all about this until I read Darrell's blog.

Xinle came to school in the wrong pinafore today, so it was really really short, and nowhere near her knees. She was trying to cover it up modestly and fretting over it, while we gave weird advice, especially ELEANOR. So we suggested stuff like pulling your belt higher so that it would seem that the lower half is longer, but she ended up looking o_o. Then we suggested that she stoop slightly but then she looked bow-legged. And she tried leaning backwards but the front became super short. And then we thought of tying a jacket around her hip, and then two, since one was not enough to cover up the shortness, which was just plain weird.

So in the end after a lot of laughter and smart comments from El Xinle sat down in frustration, and El, who was sitting on my table, threw her hands in front of her face and went "Whoa!" which made us laugh all over again and forget about the time, so we had to rush down for assembly.

Oh, El, you funny funny girl. You and your fake declarations of love, just because you wanted to borrow my correction tape. XD

Out of desperation Xinle pulled off the hemmed part in the end, so there was this distinct line, but at least her pinafore was longer. And she didn't get booked! (She was standing at the second place, since everybody didn't want to be in front.)

Chem with Teesh tomorrow. Hopefully we can get everything done in about six hours. :D

If you understand the history or what's currently going on, you can actually decipher the half-second glances, the slight smile, the speech and the hugs. It's pretty interesting. But it doesn't make me feel better. Knowing the meaning behind the little actions and impulses is very.....discomforting. Especially when you're all too aware of your own. ):

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 10:58 PM

Ne laisse pas le temps,
te décevoir...
....ll ne peut être conquis...
Dans la tristesse, dans la douleur...
Aujourd'hui, demain...
Au fil du temps... Le temps... C'est La Vie.

Awesome song.

The way he said the words at the beginning just reminds me of you.

the water from the river seine are tears from the heart
flowing past every image of your laughter
i will see myself in your memories, and also see the ending
you'll only treasure love when it has past you by

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:10 PM

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Sometimes I wish that something would happen. Almost instantly Logic will berate me for making such a foolish wish. Idiot, it will say, do you honestly want to go on like this?

No I don't. But it's an addiction, it's just like a drug. It's a habit, it's something I've accepted ever since then. And while I want all this to end, I still can't bear to let go.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning.
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is

Is you. :/

I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to get you into this mess.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:35 PM

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Oh dear, sometimes I feel really Bad, either way.

When I didn't do anything to begin with. If you think about it it's not really logical, because I didn't do a single thing at all.

Well my heart knows me better than I know myself
So I'm gonna let it do all the talking.
I came across a place in the middle of nowhere
With a big black horse and a cherry tree.

I felt a little fear, upon my back
I said don't look back, just keep on walking.
When the big black horse that looked this way,
Said hey lady, will you marry me?

And guess what she said. ):

Dolly would be pleased to know that I like this song, I know.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 8:14 PM

Whoa, today's been a really weird day. =_=

I'm glad I got through more than three-quarters of it. Throughout the whole day I alternated between stressful emotions. Besides sleepiness. But that's a product of those emotions so I suppose it doesn't really count.....slept through physics and upon waking up promptly asked El what I missed. Which apparently hasn't been much. Well maybe I shouldn't have asked her coz she was cramming chem during physics, but Jamie was sleeping next to me so....

And I tried to sleep in the library but my phone buzzed right next to my ear, so it was a no go.

Well, I've realised that as long as I could remember, I've always had a Sarah in my life. I have Sarah my dear cousin, Sarah my dear love and Sarah my dear...Giam. XD So what do I do next time when I don't have a Sarah anymore???? T'will be very sad indeed.

But then again it'll be worse if I don't have a ______ in my life. D: Ah. Okay. So, going back....

It just goes to show that Sarah is a really common name. Pfft. Well. I've been thinking a lot about names lately. Apparently Shiing's name came from a jade. Or something. Well MY name came from my zodiac! If you see the chinese character. The Other Si Min aka Charmaine Wong Si Min - yes, the one whose name I almost shared, but not really in the nick of time - would understand.

Weird post to end off a weird day.

Then again I've been doing many weird things lately. Like standing in the middle of a field, for example.

Rayne
There's a reason why people don't wear their hearts on their sleeve.

Where dreams were made; 6:30 PM

Monday, April 21, 2008

Was waiting for something today, but I didn't know what. It didn't materialize anyway. Coz if it did, I would recognize it like an old friend, and think, "Ah, so you were what I was waiting for." But it didn't come.

I am still waiting.

Pray, pray. That seems to be the only thing that I can do now.

Rayne
Cannot forgive. Cannot forget.

Where dreams were made; 6:14 PM

Sunday, April 20, 2008

When words would just not do.

Oh, such a pleasantly warm day it is today!

Rayne

It was cloudy in Italy, which surprised them. They had expected brilliant sunshine. But never mind: it was Italy, and the very clouds looked fat. Neither of them had ever been there before. Both gazed out of the windows with rapt faces. The hours flew as long as it was daylight, and after that there was the excitement of getting nearer, getting quite near, getting there. At Genoa it had begun to rain–Genoa! imagine actually being at Genoa, seeing its name written up in the station just like any other name–at Nervi it was pouring, and when at last towards midnight, for again the train was late, they got to Mezzago, the rain was coming down in what seemed solid sheets. But it was Italy. Nothing it did could be bad. The very rain was different–straight rain, falling properly on to one's umbrella; not that violently blowing English stuff that got in everywhere. And it did leave off; and when it did, behold the earth would be strewn with roses.

Italy....I miss Italy. Mm.

Where dreams were made; 3:01 PM

Saturday, April 19, 2008

The paths have been crossed
It comes and goes and is lost
Melancholy phantoms light of skin
Poison apples falling with the wind

For a moment there I was lost. Still am. Somehow I never really regained my sense of purpose after I passed through Time.

Hear the sigh of the trees
Those who enter here never leave

I suppose that's why once we stop, we can't really pick up the pace and continue. :/ Something's always bound to get left behind. Don't know what I'm looking for, but I know who I'm looking for. However that doesn't matter in the equation. In the end I'm still here, looking for something worthy to do.

I'm still taking the easier route, just because it is natural that way.

Mm, feels like the calm before the storm, but I'm already anticipating it to come. Yet I'm not prepared, not in the slightest bit. If I can focus on putting one foot in front of the other, just like that, walking on and on, hopefully, I'll be able to take refuge before it comes.

Oh, no. I still don't know what to do. After all this, I still don't know what to do.

And the rangers stream out to the cabins
They are the hunters
We are the rabbits
Maybe we don't want to be found
Maybe we don't want to be found

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 9:13 PM

Only have I realized recently that support is so important. One word can make you run a hundred miles longer, with fresh determination, with clear eyes. Felt so touched when people I knew, when people I barely knew started cheering for me. Thank you so much. (:

The scouts were so enthusiastic and sporting! When the performers came out they cheered. After every sentence they cheered. In between breaks they cheered. When other schools came out to play the stage games they cheered! Which was great, because the concert was very audience-interactive.

Mm, but I was very tired. I wished I had bathed...but it didn't cross my mind to bring towels and stuff. Shiing wanted to lend them to me but she had to rush off to meet her platoonmates before they kill her. :D Wandered around school trying to cool off. Below in the amphi the guides were setting up the concert and playing the haunted melody...it is very nice and grand, but extremely creepy. (By the way, that dance segment that accompanied it was really cool. Puppet strings!) I would love to draw something to accompany the music.

Recently I found a flute that we bought from the Nara Deer Park in Japan. I can play it! Haha! It acts just like a recorder, but I can't play high C. I remember when my recorder gave me so much trouble because my fingers couldn't close the holes properly and it always starts screeching on its own. After primary school I chucked it somewhere and it never saw the light again. Well this flute doesn't give me as much problems but not being able to play high C and beyond limits it drastically.

Couldn't see the stars in the sky last night. Not one.

Where dreams were made; 3:51 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I called, and you answered.

Math was weird. El was being her usual funny self and Shiing was being very....un-Shiing, and I could only laugh. Once in the middle El went, "Stop being so annoying!" and Shiing said, "Look who's talking! Pot black!" and I slid off my seat laughing and Jamie had to pull me back up again. El was laughing crazily into her paper and Shiing said, a little defensively, "It's a short form okay! I saw it before! Really!" And then when Mr Ng wrote this formula on the whiteboard El's jaw literally dropped. We looked at each other in stunned uncomprehension and then El's forehead hit the table, causing Shiing and I to laugh harder and Jamie trying her utmost to calm us down. This is STRESS, stress, I tell you! We weren't being high, we were just being stressed. There's a marked difference!

Got a tiny surprise today which was good. I needed it. Just being able to see you makes me happy. (:

Mr Ganesh is really very very very very very nice and funny. He's such an awesome teacher!

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:45 PM

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TEESH!

Oh dear I know you wrote it in my handbook really big and explicit and full of your quichelet-ness but I just forgot! Mostly coz I've been seeing it too many times and my eyes just wandered past it. And I know you're asking for CASH but I don't have any now, seriously! D:

And I think of you whenever life gets me down
I think of you whenever you're not around
And you rest your bones
Somewhere far from my house
Yeah, but you still pull me home

A Fine Frenzy! :D Yeah Quichelet I still think of you...and Oreo Cheesecake, and our never-accomplished cheesecake hunt. And the time where I died of laughter and my coffee...

Precious memories.

Just to put your mind at ease
You don't owe me anything
You paid me well in memories

OKAY THIS SONG DOESN'T REALLY APPLY TO YOU but I was listening to it, so. :P I bet you won't even read this, because my blog is too...floaty for you.

Rayne

edit:
part [C] mish SOUBI AND BAN <3 says:
fine.
part [C] mish SOUBI AND BAN <3 says:
hoodie by itself is too thin!
Rayne; Another place to fall says:
yes
Rayne; Another place to fall says:
you need someone inside
Rayne; Another place to fall says:
:D
Rayne; Another place to fall says:
______<3!

Mind you, that's a person's name.

Gah obsessed!

Where dreams were made; 9:17 PM

When things clash.

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one. -Elbert Hubbard

So I've been making mistakes lately, one after another, building up forever until I can't seem to atone for any of them. After a while it seems as though I could forgive small mistakes that would've been pretty large to me in the past, and it scares me. To be indifferent to my mistakes is the biggest mistake I've ever made. Mistakes are....mistakes. A long time ago, I taught myself to let go of them. They remain mistakes without all the edges to them anymore.

But in the meantime, in between all the major blunders I've made, I've been happy. I guess that everything will turn out okay in the end.

Oh, the sirens sing so sweet and watched the sailors go down
Oh, oh, you talk to me in siren song
Yeah, anyone would drown
Anyone would drown

Social studies broke down when the front two groupies collapsed in helpless laughter as the Marker Wolverine made its appearance again and again....across the room MXW was taking sneak photos of this Phenomenon while Giam laughed and laughed like the doll she is....shiing joong and I can't sit in the same group; every time we caught each other's eye we started smirking again.

If I didn't know better...but I guess I did. Received my Bio marks today. I'm not doubting myself yet.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 6:18 PM

Monday, April 14, 2008

The goat! The goat! Haha last year we made Ms Seah replay this part again after watching the whole thing. It is so HILARIOUS. Love this movie. :D

Today is not a day for sentimentality. I will not, not succumb! Ha. So there.

Oh, and this was what I was telling you about, JX:

No no no you're not coming in today.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 6:20 PM

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

The Velveteen Rabbit! :o

Where dreams were made; 8:19 AM

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Was walking home today to the lift, when I saw this father and daughter about to go into the lift too. The father wanted to take the lift, but the little girl was resisting hard. As I went closer this was what I heard:

Father: There's no need to be scared! You want to see the MRT tracks, don't you?
Daughter: I don't waaaant! It's so tall!
Father: It's alright! You'll see so many things up there.
Daughter: ......
Father: I'll carry you, okay?

She looked at her father, looked away, looked at me, who was already in the lift waiting for them, and then she nodded. Her father swung her up into his arms and carried her into the lift. I smiled at them, he smiled back, she looked at me curiously. I asked, "Highest floor?" He nodded, and said, "This girl wants to see many things up there." We took the lift to the highest floor (I lived on the highest floor) the lift could take us, and then he smiled again, went out with her looking back and waving goodbye to me. As I walked up the stairs he was pointing out the things to her: the tracks, the fields, the carnival.....and she, I think, got over her fear of heights pretty fast.

I think...that her smile was the sweetest thing I received today. Reminded me a little of another girl that I know. The next time she looks out she won't need her father to carry her anymore...I hope the view would be as splendid for her as it was today.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 6:00 PM

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Unexplainable hurt. I'm struggling to stuff feelings into words, but they resist me terribly. They do not want to be obvious. (It's not my fault.)

Does it not occur that when you hurt, I hurt too?

Time to tell me the truth

To burden your mouth for what you say

No pieces of paper in the way

Cause i cant continue pretending to choose

The opposite sides on which we fall

The loving you laters if at all

No right minds could wrong be this many times

Well, on Friday I sang to the world, and it sang back. And then afterwards I called out to it again, but it didn't answer.

But the images were enough to make up for the silence.

Don't know why I took a picture of this. But it looked so nice and glittery in the shop window! I can't imagine anyone wearing this though.

...Or maybe I can.

We saw this and I SO wanted to take a picture of it, but I didn't know if I could. So we lingered there for a really long time until I finally caught the shopkeeper's eye and asked for permission to take it, and he barely inclined his head, so I quickly took a photo and we scrambled out of there.

AND as we got out of Nus we saw this adorable thing:

<3!

We were trying to take pictures of the cat but it kept moving and running around JX and nuzzling her, so there are very few nice poses of it. It is so nice and furry and not wary at all, unlike the cats near my house who would take one look at me and RUN.

Gracey: I think it's a he.
Me: How do you know?
Gracey: Well, ginger cats are usually hes.

Hmm.

Me (nearly in tears because I can't snap a decent photo): PLEASE look this way, kitty!

(Btw, the shoe behind is JX's. Gingey's quite protective of her, I think.)

A little later the sky started preparing itself for its daily performance:

And then, the grand finale:

Which was marred by the traffic light and the vehicles but it was still so beautiful anyway. Such a romantic sky...I wished that I had seen it with you.

Won't know what to expect though.

I am aiming to be somebody this somebody trusts
With her delicate soul
I don't claim to know much except soon as you start
To make room for the parts
That aren't you it gets harder to bloom in a garden of
Love love love love
Love Love love love

Only thing I ever could need, only one good thing
Worth trying to be and it's....

LOVE.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 1:45 PM

Thursday, April 10, 2008

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHI CHENG!

Haha sorry I spent your birthday mugging as you did. XD

[edit] Took down stuff that I won't want to be up here. It's so...perverse. And petty of me. I'm sorry. [/edit]

Goodnight, goodnight.

Rayne
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it like it's true.

Where dreams were made; 9:46 PM

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Somehow I managed to keep the weariness at bay until I reached the bus. Then I conked out, woke up at the Dover MRT and thought that the world was on fire - that was how disoriented I was. But oh, the sky was orange, red and blue at the same time, aflame yet tranquil. Such a beautiful sky like I've never seen. And as I walked home it was blue-purple on my left and orangey-pink on my right. Right smack in the middle was where the blending was so striking. Reminded me of this song Ordinary Miracles: It's not that unusual/When everything's so beautiful/It's just another ordinary miracle today.

The clock's ticking. I don't know exactly what to do now. Part of me wants to just get right to it and another part just wants to sit back and stare as life passes me by. Oh, another song just went past my head then. It's just like Pearlyn said: you say one phrase and a song lyrics pops into your head.

Floundering about. I understand the urgency but I just can't get to it. :/ It's such a mess now.

Grasping at loose straws.
Rayne

Where dreams were made; 8:24 PM

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

A monster came along to consume the doll and spat out her bones. If she had seen it she would have started running, but she didn't realise until the last minute, and by then she couldn't have done it anymore.

Everything happens for a reason. Even the most coincidental thing such as meeting at the bus stop has an underlying reason. Always, always. If I don't know how to go on from here, I trust that you will take my hand and lead the way.

Don't like to walk in the rain alone. Don't like to be alone when it rains. There's a distinctive quality about the rain that requires me to seek company. Partly influenced by Dolly.

Rayne; Inori says:
THIS IS NOT A TIME FOR HUMILITY
Shona says: Actually it's Korean but blogger fails to register it.
not the point xD
Rayne; Inori says:
D<
Shona says:
YAH
Shona says:
start selling youself!
Rayne; Inori says:
that's why I hate applications.
Shona says:
haha sounded wrong
Rayne; Inori says:
LOL!
Rayne; Inori says:
LOL!
Rayne; Inori says:
YES
Rayne; Inori says:
like selling a car
Rayne; Inori says:
hahahaha
Shona says:
...i suppose you'd be a beetle car then =D
Rayne; Inori says:
beetle car?
Rayne; Inori says:
whyyy?
Shona says:
cute and tiny and makes lots of noise xP
Rayne; Inori says:
:o
Rayne; Inori says:
I make a lot of noise?
Shona says:
a don't know! you chirp a lot =P like chipmunk
Rayne; Inori says:
I chirp??
Shona says:
it's a compliment, btw
Rayne; Inori says:
I chirp?
Shona says:
HAHA
Rayne; Inori says:
thanks. xD
Rayne; Inori says:
but..I chirp?
Rayne; Inori says:
how do I do that??
Rayne; Inori says:
cheep?
Shona says:
i don't know how to say
Shona says:
in a very bunwigi manner o_O
Rayne; Inori says:
o_O
Rayne; Inori says:
you must tell me next time when I chirp so that I know how it sounds like.

Do I chirp? :o

Just when you think you know that person well enough, they continue to surprise you in many other ways. They are....complex. (Sho's word.)

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 7:01 PM

Monday, April 07, 2008

Somehow I believed that if I stare at the damn thing hard enough, it will actually do itself. Maybe when the clock strikes twelve it will. Or MAYBE it will take one look at its contents, feel so bored and annoyed and decide to go dancing instead. Now that is more plausible.

El is so contagious, my cells are infected by her very presence. Literally. It's all part of her charm. :o Yes okay I am sick sick sick and tomorrow is the Dreaded Thing which I will still do coz I will NOT wait for another day while it looms over my head, so there.

There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're traveling with me

fior\13slc; Sarah Your love's like summer rain says:
There's water and a dunking machine.
fior\13slc; Sarah Your love's like summer rain says:
You pay money, select the prefect of your choice and in she goes.

I WANT I WANT. I will go just for dunking Sarah. Why are all the good things clashing together? D: Cannot go anyway. Sigh.

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 9:23 PM

Felt more accomplished in two hours than I did the entire weekend.

The path of bread crumbs I laid before me has vanished before my very eyes. Even if I had more time, I would have just squandered it all away.

I will endure and make it past this week. Tomorrow is The Dreaded Day. I will sincerely do my best...! It's worrisome! I dislike this kind of thing intensely. Tomorrow I will rejoice that it's over, over, over, but today I will....quake in fear.

No apology should be given insincerely. No matter how laughingly you say it, the sincerity is always there.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 6:55 PM

Sunday, April 06, 2008

MUST. TYPE. SOMETHING. SANE.

music when the lights go out says:
!!
music when the lights go out says:
YOU ARE NOT RESPONDING
Rayne; Inori says:
I AM ENGAGED IN A DEADLY FIGHT WITH PHYSICS
Rayne; Inori says:
OVER THE WAVELENGHTS
Rayne; Inori says:
*WAVELENGTHS
Rayne; Inori says:
SAVE THE WAVELENGTHS, SAVE THE WORLD
Rayne; Inori says:
I WILL BE A HERO!!!!!
music when the lights go out says:
kjcx
music when the lights go out says:
sedfocfasjlndg xcva;esodxl
Rayne; Inori says:
OOH
Rayne; Inori says:
CODE
Rayne; Inori says:
CODE!
Rayne; Inori says:
PODE
Rayne; Inori says:
LODE
Rayne; Inori says:
DODE
Rayne; Inori says:
BODE
Rayne; Inori says:
RODE
Rayne; Inori says:
THE LODE RODE A YODE THAT BODE EVIL FOR THE WODE.
Rayne; Inori says:
OKAY
music when the lights go out says:
what about node.
music when the lights go out says:
or mode.
Rayne; Inori says:
TO MAINTAIN YOUR SANITY, PLEASE PROCEED OUT OF THE RIGHT DOOR
music when the lights go out says:
oh man you forgot the obvious ones
Rayne; Inori says:
THEY FLEW TO THE GODE.
Rayne; Inori says:
FORGET THE OBVIOUS!
music when the lights go out says:
oh whatever
Rayne; Inori says:
LOOK AT THE IMPERVIOUS!
Rayne; Inori says:
APOLLO SIX SIX SIX IS MALFUNCTIONING
Rayne; Inori says:
ABORT! ABORT! ABORT!
music when the lights go out says:
We are not amused.
Rayne; Inori says:
DO NOT BE AMUSED
Rayne; Inori says:
IT IS NOT A LAUGHING MATTER
music when the lights go out says:
We want Albert.
Rayne; Inori says:
HE TOOK LEAVE AND WENT TO THE CRANBERRY TREE
Rayne; Inori says:
WHOOHOO!
Rayne; Inori says:
OH DEAR.
Rayne; Inori says:
IF YOU ARE SHARP WITH ME I WILL BE FLAT
Rayne; Inori says:
LALALALALALALALALAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Rayne; Inori says:
SHE HAS FLED THE CRIME SCENE
Rayne; Inori says:
AND THERE IS NO MORE STORY TO CONTINUE
Rayne; Inori says:
COZ THE DETECTIVE IS ASLEEP
Rayne; Inori says:
AND THE VICTIM HAS WALKED OFF WITHOUT AN ARM
Rayne; Inori says:
AND THE BLOOD IS DANCING WITH THE FINGERPRINTS
Rayne; Inori says:
WHILE THE HAIRS ARE SINGING A SONG
Rayne; Inori says:
OH GO ON
Rayne; Inori says:
JOIN THE PARTY!
music when the lights go out says:
i think 'twenty years of snow' is a song that fits my display pic very well
Rayne; Inori says:
GOOD FOR YOU
Rayne; Inori says:
WE WILL NOW ENTER A COMMERCIAL BREAK
music when the lights go out says:
hello
Rayne; Inori says:
hello.
Rayne; Inori says:
may I interest you in buying a car?

Oh, go on! Bury me now.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 4:54 PM

Saturday, April 05, 2008

What do things and people signify to you, exactly? What positions do we of this world take in your heart? Or are we not even in there?

Special is such a relative thing. It was not your love or comfort she sought the day she laid her head on your shoulder and told you what she felt. It was hers whom she called in the night, a little fearfully, tentatively, but determinedly, her love and concern that she wanted to receive to know that she was....special. She knows that she is special in your heart. She needs you, but not as much as she needs her, and never, in the same way. Oh, she just wants to be special, special, special.

Maybe I was a little harsh on both of us. I certainly didn't feel good.

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

Maybe I'll just stop, because it aches sometimes, like an old wound that refuses to heal.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 8:54 PM

Friday, April 04, 2008

I'm half-deaf now. Binkee gave a good scream into my ear, something she hasn't done in two years, and now it's lodged somewhere deep down and won't come out. And the loudspeaker is so....loud. If you think it's nice music, it isn't. Best bet is to go with classical. Thank you for listening to me. No, thank you for ending your speech early. We won't have missed our transfer station stop if we had noticed it a half-minute earlier! Orange does not go with green, no matter what the sun girl says. Blue, now blue is a nice colour. If you're consistently wrong, you'll be right sooner or later. The best word you can ever give us is Goodbye. Goodbye.

All jumbled up, messed up together with some random quotes and things in other languages. Met Rachel at the library. Stumbled home wearily, bathed and went out again at the same time that you had training coz I brought my over-due book which I didn't know was overdue but not the book that was due today. Yeah, my book dates are all mixed as well. So many things you see in the dark that don't come out during the day. I needed someone to sleep on but no one was willing to be my pillow and I was too tired to ask.

Where dreams were made; 8:55 PM

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Oh, this road is long, this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
"There's nothing bound in thought you cannot do?"
Well, I've seen some things but not all of them came true.

& I wanted that moment to last forever. But we would never know until we try. I get this feeling that I'm heading into deep waters, and there's nothing left to pull me back. May not be a bad thing. I'm biding my time.

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 8:47 PM

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

夢はどこにある?
愛はどこにある?

I can feel it all the time. It's always there.

Today Julie the Biscuit was going around in our class asking people to let their hair down. She and her inquisitive scientific mind...she even asked the people who popped into our class during the Lit SA block. Just because of one little comment that Joong made with regards to Shiing. It was pretty amusing. Giammy looked like a doll. :o

Assumption is SO cute. Almost everybody loved him at first sight. We kept pairing him up with Bernard (sp?) but he looked best peeking out from the table leg. He got abducted twice today. He's too adorable for words! Should've shown him to Dolly but he got abducted before I got to see her today.

海の上も行った
キラキラの波の上を
つま先で歩いてみたんだ
静かな風が吹いてた

Shiing really likes to rhyme El's name. In the past few days she has been exclaiming, "What the hell, El?!" But maybe that's coz El keeps flinging Bernard across the room.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 8:03 PM

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Now these are priceless.

The Swiss Spaghetti Harvest
In 1957 the respected BBC news show Panorama announced that thanks to a very mild winter and the virtual elimination of the dreaded spaghetti weevil, Swiss farmers were enjoying a bumper spaghetti crop. It accompanied this announcement with footage of Swiss peasants pulling strands of spaghetti down from trees. Huge numbers of viewers were taken in. Many called the BBC wanting to know how they could grow their own spaghetti tree. To this the BBC diplomatically replied that they should "place a sprig of spaghetti in a tin of tomato sauce and hope for the best."

The Taco Liberty Bell
In 1996 the Taco Bell Corporation announced that it had bought the Liberty Bell and was renaming it the Taco Liberty Bell. Hundreds of outraged citizens called the National Historic Park in Philadelphia where the bell was housed to express their anger. Their nerves were only calmed when Taco Bell revealed, a few hours later, that it was all a practical joke. The best line of the day came when White House press secretary Mike McCurry was asked about the sale. Thinking on his feet, he responded that the Lincoln Memorial had also been sold. It would now be known as the Ford Lincoln Mercury Memorial.

Alabama Changes the Value of Pi
The April 1998 issue of the New Mexicans for Science and Reason newsletter contained an article claiming that the Alabama state legislature had voted to change the value of the mathematical constant pi from 3.14159 to the 'Biblical value' of 3.0. Before long the article had made its way onto the internet, and then it rapidly made its way around the world, forwarded by people in their email. It only became apparent how far the article had spread when the Alabama legislature began receiving hundreds of calls from people protesting the legislation. The original article, which was intended as a parody of legislative attempts to circumscribe the teaching of evolution, was written by a physicist named Mark Boslough.

The Left-Handed Whopper
In 1998 Burger King published a full page advertisement in USA Today announcing the introduction of a new item to their menu: a "Left-Handed Whopper" specially designed for the 32 million left-handed Americans. According to the advertisement, the new whopper included the same ingredients as the original Whopper (lettuce, tomato, hamburger patty, etc.), but all the condiments were rotated 180 degrees for the benefit of their left-handed customers. The following day Burger King issued a follow-up release revealing that although the Left-Handed Whopper was a hoax, thousands of customers had gone into restaurants to request the new sandwich. Simultaneously, according to the press release, "many others requested their own 'right handed' version."

Planetary Alignment Decreases Gravity
In 1976 the British astronomer Patrick Moore announced on BBC Radio 2 that at 9:47 AM a once-in-a-lifetime astronomical event was going to occur that listeners could experience in their very own homes. The planet Pluto would pass behind Jupiter, temporarily causing a gravitational alignment that would counteract and lessen the Earth's own gravity. Moore told his listeners that if they jumped in the air at the exact moment that this planetary alignment occurred, they would experience a strange floating sensation. When 9:47 AM arrived, BBC2 began to receive hundreds of phone calls from listeners claiming to have felt the sensation. One woman even reported that she and her eleven friends had risen from their chairs and floated around the room.

The Eruption of Mount Edgecumbe
In 1974 residents of Sitka, Alaska were alarmed when the long-dormant volcano neighboring them, Mount Edgecumbe, suddenly began to belch out billows of black smoke. People spilled out of their homes onto the streets to gaze up at the volcano, terrified that it was active again and might soon erupt. Luckily it turned out that man, not nature, was responsible for the smoke. A local practical joker named Porky Bickar had flown hundreds of old tires into the volcano's crater and then lit them on fire, all in a (successful) attempt to fool the city dwellers into believing that the volcano was stirring to life. According to local legend, when Mount St. Helens erupted six years later, a Sitka resident wrote to Bickar to tell him, "This time you've gone too far!"

The Case of the Interfering Brassieres
In 1982 the Daily Mail reported that a local manufacturer had sold 10,000 "rogue bras" that were causing a unique and unprecedented problem, not to the wearers but to the public at large. Apparently the support wire in these bras had been made out of a kind of copper originally designed for use in fire alarms. When this copper came into contact with nylon and body heat, it produced static electricity which, in turn, was interfering with local television and radio broadcasts. The chief engineer of British Telecom, upon reading the article, immediately ordered that all his female laboratory employees disclose what type of bra they were wearing.

AND there are more but I can't read them coz my com is wonky. Haha! Guess which one is my personal fave! They make Nancy's trick seem paltry by comparison but hers was still a nice trick. ;) Too bad about the timing, you blur girl.

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 8:47 PM

If she had known that she was not going with them, that she was going to die along with the ship, what would she have done? What would she have said?

D Gray-Man chapter 76. I hope I'll never have to read it again. It's just too sad. Had they known all along that it would end up like this? The survivors were so few, so few. And this is only the beginning.....

Don't know why Dolly say it's draggy. It keeps pulling me along.

Then again people and things have been pulling me along all day.

Happy April Fool's Day, everybody!

Rayne

Where dreams were made; 6:23 PM